i don't think i'm a bad person but i'm definately not as forgiving as Jesus..

[Donovan]

ok, i've posted on here about a chick i was recently seeing that tried to play me on some nonsense. now i'm not mad at her or anything anymore but i'm just not the person to try and use for your own pleasure. the reason i bring this up is cuz i'm a musical artist(mc/rapper/lyricist whatever you call it) and when i speak the people like to listen. a few years ago my fiance decided she didn't need me anymore once she finished school and had used me financially for many years. i verbally abused her to the point her mother kicked her out of the house due to embarassment. now i'm not proud of it at all but i swear i don't bother anyone until they do me wrong and then i just go in 10x worse than they did. which brings me to this current moment....

 

my ex fiance still continues to write me and lying to my mother(they are close) why we seperated and this latest girl that tried to used me i still got to see her at least twice a month(as i've stated before). not to keep going on and on, i've wrote a scathing diss track about the both of them. and when i say scating, i mean i get personal. it's so bad that even guys i know that use females for money and cheat on them tell me i'm taking it a lil too far.. i have 2 songs. the first one is just a jab u can say and the 2nd is an all out no holds barred personal attack on the both of them. i promised myself i wouldn't do that type of thing again, but i just hate to be played for a fool.. i'm not mad either girl didn't want to be with me cuz they do have a choice, it's just the coward way they went about it without apologizing(which could probably stop the whole thing). but their pride and mine won't let apologies happen so i gotta do what i gotta do.

 

does releasing these songs and performing them publicly make me a bad person or do the people that use others just need to be taught lessons? cuz if i had done to either one of them what they done or tried to do to me, i can honestly say i would deserve the same..

[Ronni_W]

I think maybe just use your own values, ideals and standards to guide you on this one?

 

Not so much what you believe you would deserve if the situations were reversed, but: Who do YOU want to be in life, and what do YOU want to stand for?

 

Live up to your OWN highest vision of YOURSELF, you know? Don't let other people influence you to be lesser than YOU want to be. Screw'em about that!!! Keep your own power and your own control.

[Donovan]

Ronni those are some wise words, but so many times i just let things go and it builds up to a point like this every few years when i just say "enough is enough" and unload(verbally always of course) i have a high vision of myself, but like i said, i'm not Jesus. there are no rules to war.. i'm still in control but some things must be done.

[Ronni_W]

I dunno, Donovan. I guess you could ask yourself why you bothered to post about it instead of just doing it?

 

Kinda sounds like you were/are looking for "permission" or "approval' (or whatever specific thing) that it's okay to go against your own values. Could that be accurate?

 

The fact that you're not Jesus Christ has no bearing on the case that you're trying to build for yourself . None of us is JC! What's that got to do with how we choose to live our lives?