Excellent Posted May 2, 2009 Posted May 2, 2009 Well, some of you know my story. If not, you can check out my other threads. Basically, i met up with my ex today, 5 months after the break. We got into discussion, and she finally said that she had a new boyfriend. To wich i responded that i already knew, and had known for a couple of months now. She then got curious in how i knew, because she had told about it to more or less noone. I just said that although i'm easily fooled sometimes, i'm not stupid. And the question of cheating came up, and i made her understand that this is something that just crosses your mind when this happens. And she said she did not cheat, and would never do that to anyone. And i believe her, she met this guy 3 months after the break. And i told her that i couldn't care less who she was with, but yet, i feel that this has somehow set me back a bit. I'm not back to square one, but not healed completely either. I just feel empty atm. Wich is fine i guess..rather that then a complete heartbreak again. And the fact that i couldn't help but to feel a little down when she told me this, and that she still wanted us to be friends didn't help in my situation. I told her how my feelings were for her when we were together, and how much she during the break hurted me. That i felt used. And she did agree that she was an idiot at the time, but that was that. She has moved on now she says. The only thing i regret is that i wasn't allowed to finish speaking, before the argument got a little heated. I basically just said that since she now got a new boyfriend, why can't he hold her furniture, wich have been standing at my place since january. This upset her and got her mad, and more or less ended the conversation. I don't know why she got so mad, she said it was the "tone of my voice" and said there was no reason to get mad. I wasn't mad, i tried to explain that it's just how i sound when i talk about something really serious, but she wouldn't hear of it. So, i guess it's back to square one in terms of our work situation. Neither of us wants that, but i guess it can't be helped and that there yet again, has to be an icefront between us. Sigh...now i really, REALLY want summer holiday to come. Anyway, atleast i got a confirmation on that we are done, for good. In the long run, it will help. But for now, it hurts a little still.
Author Excellent Posted May 2, 2009 Author Posted May 2, 2009 I just sent her my last and final e-mail after we had our face-to-face talk today. Basically telling her how i have felt about the whole thing, telling her that i have accepted the breakup and wishing her well with her new boyfriend. In addition i have said that i still want us to be friends, but only at work. No more private contact, because i know it won't work for me, her and her new bf in the long run. The new bf can say that it is ok that we are friends as much as he wants, but i think i know how he really thinks about it, i know i would. So i just told her that out of respect for her new private life i will stay away, and she will never hear from me again outside work. Unless it's for practical reasons, whatever that may be. To sum it up, i told her i am finally letting her go. And man do i feel good right now. As i said in my e-mail to her that i didn't expect an answer either, and thats fine. I have said what i needed to say, and consider that e-mail as a final end to all of this. Now i can concentrate on finding a new "the one", i just hope i don't have to wait too long. I am aching to feel that tingeling sensation again
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