Saw him again

[Da Supastar BL]

I finally saw my ex again after not seeing him for a month and half last friday and then again last night. It was bound to happen since we both have mutual friends. Last time I saw him was at his house after trying to confront him to fess up to me that he moved on and that he was talking/dating another girl (from what I heard he's not talking to that girl anymore but who knows). I walked out after he couldnt be completely honest with me. After that I told him not to contact me anymore and that I didnt wanna be his friend. I basically wanted to go NC. He's contacted me at least 5 times after telling him not to..either asking me how I been or making little small chit chats like everything is all cool. I been ignoring him on/off and saying only little things if he tries to talk to me. He usually gets pissed if I ignore him. I dont ever try to contact him.

 

So new update on me..I been feeling much better compared to last month. I even started getting to know and started talking to a new guy who I know from a mutual friend. He just got out of a relationship too so were just taking things slow and not taking anything seriously right now since we've both been hurt. Were just getting to know each other and I think that's whats best.

 

So last friday..my ex's brother came back from the Navy. I'm really good friends with his brother so he invited me and the rest of my friends to go clubbing for his birthday. Obviously my ex was going to be there. I brought my new guy with me. I think everyone was kinda suprised I brought someone and a bunch of people asked me if he was my new bf. I saw my ex and I didnt say hi to him. It was really weird seeing him again. He grew out his hair and got a little fat. I think he got ugly to be honest . In fact I said hi to everyone except him and introduced the new guy to everyone else. After awhile we were all dancing and I was having a good time and dancing with my new guy and he whispers to me "your ex keeps looking at us and he keeps glancing at me". I honestly didnt even care lol. After that..all of us kinda got tipsy. Heres where it got interesting..my ex got drunk and went up to my new guy and introduced himself and he saw that I was looking and he asked me how I been..I told him I've been GOOD! After awhile..he got really annoying. He kept bothering the 2 of us and kept asking me to take a picture with me, him, and my new guy. He must of asked me literally 5 times and I kept telling him "why?? no you cant!" and I even told him how its ****ed up how he still couldnt tell me he started dating someone else. He had nothing to say and walked away lol. Anyways we all went back on the dance floor and my ex was still annoying us. He kept coming up to my new guy and making convos with him and acting all friendly with us like everything was cool. Everytime we danced together..my ex would be right in front of us either cockblocking and acting like an idiot or he'd try to dance with my homegirls right in front of me. At one point my new guy was like "your ex seems cool but its kinda awkward how he keeps coming up to us..i think he's jealous" and I was like "i have no idea what's going on with him..I think he's just drunk" and told him not to worry about it. It was really weird how he was acting.

 

And then last night, I saw him again. His brother invited me and our friends to go out for some drinks. But this time my ex was really cold with me. I didnt bring my new guy this time. Again it was really awkward with us like there was still some tension there. When I got there..I didnt say hi to him again but said hi to everyone else. We ignored each other for most of the night. Everytime I was near him or beside him..he couldnt even look at me. I would dance with my guy friends and he'd look the other way everytime I did. I was having a fun time basically letting him see that he DOESNT bother me. This time he seemed more sober and chilled. But basically at the end of the night I got really tipsy..I was saying bye to everyone and I wanted to be nice and say bye to him. When I did..he didnt wanna say bye to me and I was like "oh so you dont wanna say bye to me now" and he was like "you didnt say hi to me" in a pissed off tone and I was like "well im saying bye to you now" and he ended up saying bye to me. When I got home..he sent me a text asking me if I made it home safely. I told him yeah I did but that I kinda felt sick and he was like "well feel better nite".

 

So do you think he still cares? His behaivor towards me was awfully weird when I saw him twice.

 

Anyways all my friends basically told me I upgraded with the new guy and that he seems way better than the douche ex. I'll see what happens with this new guy. It's kinda scary liking someone again and I basically dont want to jump into another relationship too soon so im taking my time. He seems like a really nice guy so far and he's everything I wish my ex was. Honestly..I still miss my ex and I still think about him everyday. I'm just glad I've been doing better than before. I'm still not completely over him but I'm trying to get there.

[rip]

/sigh

 

Why must girls always lead on guys? You've created a love triangle now. You're going to hurt either this new guy or your old boyfriend. You want your old boyfriend mostly because of the history and memories and comfort zone, but my advice is to not go back. It ended once for a reason, don't let it start again. Give the new guy a chance, you said it yourself, he's better. Better to die of thirst than drink from the cup of mediocracy. I'm talking through the experience of being this new guy, falling in love with a girl who lead me on and went right back to her "douche" boyfriend, 4 days recovering.

[Da Supastar BL]

I am not leading on the new guy. I truly want to get to know him and take things slow. Like I said he just got out of a relationship too and im pretty sure he's not completely over his ex just like I'm not either. So its kinda too soon for us to jump into a relationship. Me and my ex were each other's 1st love but he hurt me a lot and I dont want to ever get hurt like that again so that's why I'm being guarded this time around. I dont know if my ex still cares or not..everyone keeps telling me that he still does but is not gonna show it. But if he wanted to get back with me..a guy would do whatever it takes to get back with a girl and that's not happening. The thing is I know im always gonna see him because we both hangout in the same crowd and have the same friends. But he treated me like crap in the end so its best just to move forward and im sure he'll realize what he missed out on.