spookie Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 It's 9:05 in the morning when I burst into his cube, a smidgen late for our weekly. "How was your weekend"? he asks me, smiling. My typical response to this question is "Good," which he always follows up with "Great" but today I'm feeling chatty. "I went to Athens, Georgia, where a manhunt is underway after my best friend's professor committed triple homicide on Saturday." "Wow," he says, impressed. "He didn't shoot your friend, did he? Do they know why he did it?" I shake my head, blushing. The prospect of an actual conversation with Jack has made me shy. I squirm in my seat and nervously play with my hair. When we run out of things to say about the murder, it's on to work stuff. I send him on several long tangents, and he answers all of my questions the long way, complete with personal narratives which clench my heart. At one point, he decides I need to see what our contracts look like. He digs one out of a cabinet, moves his chair closer to mine, and together we pore over the papers. It's nothing terribly exciting, or terribly relevant to any of the work I do, either; but I can smell his cologne, his head is inches from mine, and I'm so turned on I realize, with a bittersweet pang, I feel high. Endorphins, adrenaline, dopamine. Flooding my brain. If I relax, my leg will touch his, I keep thinking. I wonder what that would feel like? We get to a page of numbers and we're both excited. "These should be right," he says. "But the last time I checked them, I did something stupid. They were supposed to be monthly, but they were annual. I wasn't paying very much attention, so I checked them against our annual. So they were matching, but I was comparing apples to oranges. I mean, I was comparing apples to apples. They were both apples. But they should have both been..." "Oranges?" I volunteer. He looks up, meets my eye, and we both crack up. "Ok, I'll stop with the fruit metaphors," he mumbles. I notice he's blushing.
xpaperxcutx Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 S, the tension is just terrible. I don't understand why you would put yourself through these kinds of torture. If interoffice relationships are your thing, then to hell with the rules and you make your feelings known. I can't imagine going through this 5 days a week.
Juristhea Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 It's always nice when you get to have some alone time with your crush, even for a little bit.
Author spookie Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 S, the tension is just terrible. I don't understand why you would put yourself through these kinds of torture. If interoffice relationships are your thing, then to hell with the rules and you make your feelings known. I can't imagine going through this 5 days a week. I already made my feelings known! He tried to help me get a transfer, but it's either not happening, or still up in the air. I'll know for sure by the end of June.
Author spookie Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 Go for it spookie! I don't think there's anything else I can do. I already told the man I was interested. And his boss. And his boss' boss. And HR. No go. Now the only thing between me and a complete nervous breakdown is his single relationship status on facebook.
Juristhea Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 I don't think there's anything else I can do. I already told the man I was interested. And his boss. And his boss' boss. And HR. No go. Now the only thing between me and a complete nervous breakdown is his single relationship status on facebook. So Inter-office romance is a big no no ey?
Author spookie Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 So Inter-office romance is a big no no ey? Actually inter-office is fine, and from the various gossip I've heard it appears more than one person at this company has found their spouse this way. Relationships between managers and subordinates, however, are not allowed.
Author spookie Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 Are you the supervisor or the guy? He is. (must have 10 chars)
Juristhea Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 So... I read in one of the posts here that he recommended you to transfer? Why?
BlueEyedGirl Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 spookie, do you get days or series of days like this (flirting, feeling the connection etc) and then he pulls back or cools down only for the cycle to start up again? Hot-cold-hot-cold...
SoulSearch_CO Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 I don't know how you do it, Spooks. That would drive me crazy.
SoulSearch_CO Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 So... I read in one of the posts here that he recommended you to transfer? Why? She requested a transfer because she had feelings for him.
Mycroft Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 She requested a transfer because she had feelings for him. Would transferring allow them to date? I assume if he recommended a transfer he wants that to happen.
BlueEyedGirl Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 At one point, he decides I need to see what our contracts look like. He digs one out of a cabinet, moves his chair closer to mine, and together we pore over the papers. It's nothing terribly exciting, or terribly relevant to any of the work I do, either; but I can smell his cologne, his head is inches from mine, and I'm so turned on I realize, with a bittersweet pang, I feel high. Endorphins, adrenaline, dopamine. Flooding my brain. If I relax, my leg will touch his, I keep thinking. I wonder what that would feel like? Oh I have had many moments like that especially in the early days. I actually did once relax my leg so that our thighs were touching. He didn't move away, but he got flustered and started stuttering as he was trying to talk about work. I looked down and I saw that he was hard through his pants. We were in a glass office with people walking around so nothing could be done. But he was fully turned on, he stopped talking and looked at me, his eyes were so moist I kind of thought he would kiss me but he jumped up and moved his chair away. We continued the meeting but he had this huge grin for the rest of it. We had other moments like this but he would iniatiate "thigh touching", it was very hot - even though nothing was ever said. Nowdays this does not happen. He has a new office with this huge desk in the middle of it. So we always sit opposite each other (there really is no other way). I kind of miss those moments. Now it's only smiling and joking with each other and borderline flirty e-mails. Anyway I suggest moving a bit closer to him when you get the chance and see what happens
SoulSearch_CO Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 Would transferring allow them to date? I assume if he recommended a transfer he wants that to happen. *Ahem*...once again...SHE requested a transfer...SHE.
Author spookie Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 Oh I have had many moments like that especially in the early days. I actually did once relax my leg so that our thighs were touching. He didn't move away, but he got flustered and started stuttering as he was trying to talk about work. I looked down and I saw that he was hard through his pants. We were in a glass office with people walking around so nothing could be done. But he was fully turned on, he stopped talking and looked at me, his eyes were so moist I kind of thought he would kiss me but he jumped up and moved his chair away. We continued the meeting but he had this huge grin for the rest of it. We had other moments like this but he would iniatiate "thigh touching", it was very hot - even though nothing was ever said. Nowdays this does not happen. He has a new office with this huge desk in the middle of it. So we always sit opposite each other (there really is no other way). I kind of miss those moments. Now it's only smiling and joking with each other and borderline flirty e-mails. Anyway I suggest moving a bit closer to him when you get the chance and see what happens Oh my god BEG. No wonder you haven't been able to move on for so long. That sounds HOT though. There's no point in my moving closer. What's he going to do, throw me on his table? We always meet in his cube, which doesn't even have 4 walls. There are people everywhere, and we're completely visible. Our fluctuations seem to follow this pattern. When he's in a good mood and hasn't pissed me off yet, I'm friendly, which causes him to open up. When he's in a bad mood, my own mood plummets, I take his distance personally, and I'm on the defense in all our interactions; aloof and overly professional. Then he's cold back at me, and we have those days which leave me wanting to cry. I don't know how to read that. I think I'm going to try to make an effort to stop withdrawing when I'm feeling like I haven't gotten enough attention. All I know is that it will be better in the summer. I will be done with my big exam which is preventing me from having a life, and I'll be moving to the city.
Juristhea Posted April 29, 2009 Posted April 29, 2009 Oh I have had many moments like that especially in the early days. I actually did once relax my leg so that our thighs were touching. He didn't move away, but he got flustered and started stuttering as he was trying to talk about work. I looked down and I saw that he was hard through his pants. We were in a glass office with people walking around so nothing could be done. But he was fully turned on, he stopped talking and looked at me, his eyes were so moist I kind of thought he would kiss me but he jumped up and moved his chair away. We continued the meeting but he had this huge grin for the rest of it. We had other moments like this but he would iniatiate "thigh touching", it was very hot - even though nothing was ever said. Nowdays this does not happen. He has a new office with this huge desk in the middle of it. So we always sit opposite each other (there really is no other way). I kind of miss those moments. Now it's only smiling and joking with each other and borderline flirty e-mails. Anyway I suggest moving a bit closer to him when you get the chance and see what happens OMG! That is just so hot. I should definitely try that sometime with my boyfriend when he and I are at some coffee shop... *wink*
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