SpanksTheMonkey Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 So tampon face just rang me I haven't talked to him in a few days and honestly I'm to the point I don't care any more its liberating and I'm so much better off with out this mans drama. I usually switch my phone off most days I like it better that way its peaceful so anyways. He text me today at 9am yea like I'm going to be awake at 9am wanker! It just said hello when I finally checked my phone before so I text back just hello figured I could use some entertainment lol. And what ya know 1 min later the phone rings! he says why have you had your phone off Ive been trying to ring you. I say it has been on after I wake up he whines about it saying why do you turn it off.. Now at that point I could be honest and say its because your a abusive **** head and I'm hoping you will give up so I can keep my #. I like so much as its so easy to remember plus not have to pay 50 bucks to change it but hell I'll play along I'll bite lol.. I say its because I want to sleep and not be bothered he then says well then I don't want to talk and hangs up on me!! hahahahah thats rich coming from a man I haven't rang in about 2 weeks! I find these little tender moments we share to be so humorous anymore.. I guess I'm now suppose to ring him back furiously and be angry for him hanging up on me GURRRR!!!!! Lmao as if.. Oh well I'm going to have some coffee now and clean MY HOUSE which hes jealous of oh well life's gota suck at some point don't it la de da :lmao::lmao:
TaraMaiden Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 I will never understand the entertainment people get from goading another person when both have known pain, and deriving pleasure from it.... could you let me know why you do this? Wouldn't it be kinder to simply not respond? _/l\_
Author SpanksTheMonkey Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 I will never understand the entertainment people get from goading another person when both have known pain, and deriving pleasure from it.... could you let me know why you do this? Wouldn't it be kinder to simply not respond? _/l\_ I do this because this man verbally/mentally/physically tortured me for 3 years. I do this because he tried to murder/strangle me on Xmas eve made me pass out just about. I do this because I now have permanent physical scars from him so I will NEVER be able to look in the mirror with out seeing that and remembering. I do this because he got every worldly possession I owned stolen right down to my underwear in one shot. You really shouldn't judge people Tara before you know the back story you don't so I'm not going to take it personally my post was vague and I can see the misunderstanding. I was just venting for the most part but please don't try and talk to me about kindness I am kind when people are kind and respectful to me..
era Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 I will never understand the entertainment people get from goading another person when both have known pain, and deriving pleasure from it.... could you let me know why you do this? Wouldn't it be kinder to simply not respond? _/l\_ Well, GeishaWelk..er..I mean - TaraMaiden, I guess you haven't read Spanks other posts...nevertheless, you seem to ALWAYS judge others - why is that? Spanks - LOL @ "tampon face"...
TaraMaiden Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 I do this because this man verbally/mentally/physically tortured me for 3 years. I do this because he tried to murder/strangle me on Xmas eve made me pass out just about. I do this because I now have permanent physical scars from him so I will NEVER be able to look in the mirror with out seeing that and remembering. I do this because he got every worldly possession I owned stolen right down to my underwear in one shot. You really shouldn't judge people Tara before you know the back story you don't so I'm not going to take it personally my post was vague and I can see the misunderstanding. I was just venting for the most part but please don't try and talk to me about kindness I am kind when people are kind and respectful to me.. That was then. This is now. If you keep doing this, you only succeed in keeping all his wrongs alive in your heart. you might as well go into your kitchen, take a very sharp knife, draw it across your skin several times then take some salt and rub it in. Everybody here advises no contact and moving on.... it seems very sound advice..... But if you wish to keep negativity alive in your life, then this is up to you.... I wish you well, and I hope you heal soon. To keep this awake is both unhealthy and sad. era, you are not the first to say this... You may believe what you wish. but I sincerely have no idea what you are talking about. this geishawelk is not listed here. So i cannot see for myself what you are referring to. _/l\_
TaraMaiden Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 I will never understand the entertainment people get from goading another person when both have known pain, and deriving pleasure from it.... could you let me know why you do this? Wouldn't it be kinder to simply not respond? _/l\_ looking at my post again, I honestly cannot see what is judgmental about it. It was an honest question. but then you answered it, so I thank you. but I was not judging you...I was merely attempting to fathom out what makes people do this, when ultimately, the actions are so self-destructive. And really - if he was so merciless and cruel to you, and you are reminded of his sadistic qualities every time you look in the mirror, I am just curious why you are holding him in your life, still.... That was all.... I wish you health happiness and joy. You are always a beautiful person, no matter what. _/l\_
era Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 My apologies TaraMaiden. Her posts ended, then yours began. Both profiles are almost identical...the Italy/England connection and buddhism. Just a coincidence...sorry
Author SpanksTheMonkey Posted April 28, 2009 Author Posted April 28, 2009 That was then. This is now. If you keep doing this, you only succeed in keeping all his wrongs alive in your heart. you might as well go into your kitchen, take a very sharp knife, draw it across your skin several times then take some salt and rub it in. Everybody here advises no contact and moving on.... it seems very sound advice..... But if you wish to keep negativity alive in your life, then this is up to you.... I wish you well, and I hope you heal soon. To keep this awake is both unhealthy and sad. era, you are not the first to say this... You may believe what you wish. but I sincerely have no idea what you are talking about. this geishawelk is not listed here. So i cannot see for myself what you are referring to. _/l\_ I think you missed the part were I said I hadn't contacted him in around a week or so?? I refuse to change my number 1 cause thats gives him more power over me 2 cause it costs 50 bucks to do in my country. And I already am paying off huge old house hold bills he ran up so screw that when I manage to get an extra 50 bucks Id rather spend it on me he can go take a flying leap. Now in the mean time if he chooses to continue to try and contact me I'm going to pick and choose when I get entertainment out of it. Its my way of healing some times one size doesn't fit all when it comes to advice. I'll be angry I'll heal in my way I'm learning how to do allot of new things my way. Something I wasn't allowed to do for a very long time oh honestly honey don't feel sad for me Ive never been so happy in my hole life its like a small part me of is being reborn every day! Funny you wanna talk about kitchen knives care to see the scars I have from those puppy's he didn't use Sault guess he was to drunk that night to think of it? I'm still trying to find a good enough makeup concealer for those after he got all mine stolen. I believe theres a special place in the 8th circle of hell for such cruel people and that belief makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. My anger doesn't destroy me Tara it empowers me it will help me to make better decisions for myself in the future. It has made me a stronger wiser person long as I control it and don't let it control me...
TaraMaiden Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 Ok. Whatever makes you completely fulfilled and happy.... Strive for it. I hope you find it.... Truly. _/l\_
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