alwayssme Posted April 27, 2009 Posted April 27, 2009 To those who just got out of a relationship and are hurting so much because of it.....you WILL feel better eventually about the situation...please keep that in mind... Anyway...tonight I feel like I need some support so I figured I would turn to this forum...Letting go of my ex was one of the hardest thing I had to do but overall Im over it...somewhat I guess some feelings remain there still....but that's not the point... I had NOT looked at his myspace or facebook page in the longest....I even deleted people I knew from him off my page....NC is the way to go to forget someone people, believe that.. Despite everything me and my ex kept in touch for so long...but don't get me wrong..it was NEVER misleading...but it still made me feel like one text would lead to the other and somehow it ALLOWED me to HOPE for the "i miss you" convo...or ANYTHING that was regarding us...but that didn't happen...texts were almost always initiated by him...at times i would respond and at times i wouldnt...once we cut off contact, the memories were starting to fade... So in the meantime, I met somebody who turned out to be a really bad guy...however he put up such a show of being a great person that i decided to give it a chance....but he turned out to be sneaky and basically a player.... Today, for some reason...I decide to look at my ex boyfriends page...i went on it and I saw him with his new girlfriend (which I didnt know he had so I just found out today), with his friends and family...his brother is having a baby with his girlfriend...and it was just crazy....Seeing the life I thought was meant for me being lived by another girl....And not to mention all the lovey dovey comments they left on each other's pages... back and forth....I just couldnt stop looking at the pics....His status said "SOOO HAPPY NOW...THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING BABY" I can't explain it....She is very pretty, I felt no hate for her at all....She seems mature and like a good person....from what I see really silly too....They looked soooooo happy and she is already friends with his friends and brothers....I guess it came to me as a shock bcz I definetely was not expecting to see all this when I went on his page..... It has been so long since we broke up...9 months..and 1 month NC....yet when I saw the pics and comments I had this weird feeling inside...It's hard to explain......I know life goes on and this is NORMAL for him to move on but still.....seeing someone else living MY OLD LIFE with the man I loved so much....it was a feeling I cant really describe.......Im not crying...Im not devastated.......but I cant sleep....The weather is sooo beautiful and for some reason this year the *begining* of every season made me miss my ex...because it was the first time i was without him in that type of weather...if anyone understands...and now that summer is coming...the hot weather & everything about it is reminding me of me and him.....but not to the point where it hurts..... I guess today I feel like..................this is OVER---FOREVER!!! Although I have known it, in the back of my mind I thought "well you never know" but tonight I KNOW!!! yupp!!! and i finally forgive him for hurting me and everything......i just want to be happy....no point in holding a grudge..... I just wanted to write here hoping somebody will tell me something to cheer me up....you guys have been such a great support system......thank you to all of you!!!
Author alwayssme Posted April 27, 2009 Author Posted April 27, 2009 If you can, listen to this two songs...I guess they descrive how I feel, in a way........I'm gona try to get some sleep because I have to wake up early for school tomorrow.....Just needed to vent...Goodnight everyone!
melissa123 Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 Hey alwaysme I know exactally how you feel! Its so hard to explain these types on feelings so I wont try but I do totally understand how you feeel! Ive stopped crying now and it doesnt really hurt any more but I still feel sad at times. I hate seeing the life I thought i would have lived being lived by someone else It still seems unfair that our exs get to be happy with seemingly awesome gfnds while we struggle to meet someone decent! I dont really know what advice to give you im afraid Just know that your not alone and that your getting there Things wont stay this was forever! And i absolutly love that second song "when it was me" When I found out about my exs new gf I played it on repeat and would just sit there and cry. Its insanne how much like my life that song is! My exs new gf even models and does some acting! Anyway if you wwant to chat or nthng feel free to PM me! Mell
Juristhea Posted April 28, 2009 Posted April 28, 2009 THis would be a pretty good song to sum up what you are feeling right now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eo9eKg1ZYEM#
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