It's hard to cope.

[Aerorobyn]

Some days are better than others. It's been nearly 6 weeks since he broke up with me, and it's really hard to cope.

 

The part that's hardest to cope with is...I'm losing all hope. Actually, I think I've already lost all hope. And that pains me. I still want there to be hope. I still want to know that there's a chance that he will look back, regret his decision, and ask for a second chance. But deep down, I know it will never happen. He's 21, he has emotional issues, I was his first real girlfriend...things like that just don't work out in the end. Not for men. All hope is gone.

 

I still love him with all my heart. But when it comes down to it, love doesn't matter. You can love a person with all your heart and want to be with them...but if they don't want you (which is how it is in my case), then there isn't much you can do.

 

All I can do is move forward, and maybe I will fall in love again someday--and probably get my heart ripped out again.

[quankanne]

never give up hope, kiddo ... it might not have happened with this boy, but it *will* happen again, that's the beauty of love ... if you keep yourself open to the possibilities it offers.

 

as hard as it is to muddle through this pain and loss, I'm glad you got to experience it, because to me, it says, "Robyn is capable of loving greatly."

 

and that ain't a bad thing at all ...

 

hugs,

quank

[Aerorobyn]

I know it could happen again. Nonetheless, it wont be with him. That's what sucks. All the memories we had together, and the smiles I had every time I was just in his presence.

 

It's all gone with him. Forever. And truth be told, I'm a little scared to fall in love ever again...because I don't want to go through all of this again, which I know will happen.

 

I wish he were here tonight, to comfort me and all. My great grandmother was admitted to the ER today, and they've given her no more than another 3-4 months...