I was doing good....

[dreamergrl]

Yes, I know.

 

It seemed you were confused about him wanting to date you again.

 

You should assume any guy who is your friend whether you used to date or not would sleep with you given the opportunity.

And if you did used to date and he is still around you can bet he has unresolved feelings.

 

There is the very rare exception of course.

 

And in your case he is not the exception but the rule.

 

Ahh okay that makes more sense now. It's funny, because he was the one to end it so to say. Just because I was curious, I asked him how he thought it would be different this time. He had limited time, and while he gave to me what he could (we live 35-45 min apart), I wasn't happy with what it was at the time, but also I remember just not being happy about anything at that time in my life. It was shortly before I ended up out of state. He told me when work is busy for him (he is self employed) it can't be much different, but he wants to give it a shot, but he also doesn't want to hurt me. I met a lot of cool people through him, and do recall always having a blast with him when we spent time together.

 

 

 

I wouldn't talk. The most I'd say is, "did you get the e-mail?" and if he had, "how are you going to handle the drama filled situation?"

If he had no answer I'd say, "well I suggest you call me when you have figured it out".

 

Good call on this point. You know, I may have been able to over look some things, but this email really put the icing on the cake. Do you think she anticipated this? She really does come off as unitelligent, so I don't know how well thought out any of this could be. I'm also really curious as too how all of a sudden she has a man, and is okay with bf wanting only me.

 

 

 

Okay.

He'll get that you mean it when you do mean it and there are no "talks", etc.

 

In my mind - a person who is a friend should treat me as a friend. That means they don't subject me to drama and psychotic exes on a regular basis.

 

Very good point

 

As far as him saying, "you don't mean that" - I would say, "oh really? So what you are saying is you have so little regard for me and our relationship that you would have me be a part of this whole 'Jerry Springer' bullsh*t and that you don't see ANY problem with that? I am telling you there is a problem. It is severe and intolerable. You need to deal with it and I do not need to be around until it is resolved."

 

Ha Jerry Springer

Good way to handle the 'you don't mean that' response though.

 

 

 

I know. I am like the Ultimate B*tch.

But I have never been in situations like this because I don't deal with them.

They are dealt with by the person responsible for the mess or I am not around.

I just do not have time for the endless circular drama.

 

I'd break it off and then have fun dating the other guy. The friend.

 

At this point your bf has become undesireable.

 

Until he has a backbone and can handle his crap as an adult, it is pointless to waste time on him.

 

He can't even see how ludicrous it is to put you in this kind of position?

He is supposed to be cherishing you and enhancing your life not making being in a relationship with him a CHORE.

You haven't been together very long and you certainly aren't married.

 

 

 

And did you say, "I know if I was living with my ex-boyfriend and his dad it would not be okay with YOU. And that is even if I had my own room with a lock on the door! But you expect ME to be acceptant of this and 'oooh you're sleeping on the couch'?!!!! Yeah, I think you do not understand --so let me explain it clearly -- you aren't dating a doormat! If you expect me to be okay with this you are insane."

 

I have endlessly told him, how would you feel if our roles were reversed. He could only tell me how much he'd dislike it, but then go on how he'd try to understand and see that in the end it will be better.

[carhill]

Oh, regarding new-old guy, be aware of those words " when work is busy for him (he is self employed) it can't be much different, but he wants to give it a shot, but he also doesn't want to hurt me."

 

My approach would be "I'm still a busy man but I make those in my life whom I love a priority" and then act the talk.

 

I personally, as a man, have distaste for men, especially those who are the "exciting" guys, who insert disclaimers.

 

For me, my disclaimer would read like this. "I'm very busy, in the process of re-building my business, getting a divorce and readying my mother's affairs for her death which I expect to happen in the near future; I want to give it a shot but don't want to hurt you" Yes, that's honest, but the focus is on me, not on you or our potential. To me, this sets things out improperly at the outset. Yes, I'm facing these things (aren't we all, in some way or another?) but those I love are a priority to me and I make the effort to nourish those relationships.

 

I'm not ragging on your guy friend specifically, but I hate it when guys use these disclaimer tools under the guise of sincerity. Let's hope I'm wrong in his case

[dreamergrl]

Oh, regarding new-old guy, be aware of those words " when work is busy for him (he is self employed) it can't be much different, but he wants to give it a shot, but he also doesn't want to hurt me."

 

My approach would be "I'm still a busy man but I make those in my life whom I love a priority" and then act the talk.

 

I personally, as a man, have distaste for men, especially those who are the "exciting" guys, who insert disclaimers.

 

For me, my disclaimer would read like this. "I'm very busy, in the process of re-building my business, getting a divorce and readying my mother's affairs for her death which I expect to happen in the near future; I want to give it a shot but don't want to hurt you" Yes, that's honest, but the focus is on me, not on you or our potential. To me, this sets things out improperly at the outset. Yes, I'm facing these things (aren't we all, in some way or another?) but those I love are a priority to me and I make the effort to nourish those relationships.

 

I'm not ragging on your guy friend specifically, but I hate it when guys use these disclaimer tools under the guise of sincerity. Let's hope I'm wrong in his case

 

Well it wasn't said in those exact words, but I'm the one who did ask, and got my answer. Even if (and that's an IF) I were to ever date him again, if bf couldn't get his balls back from roomie and her mom, I'd be going into that with little expectations. I just want to be smiling, and having fun.

 

To be honest, I've never been faced with the choice of, do I stick with bf or do I date old flame. I wasn't even expecting it, because I guess I'm just kind of slow

 

It's weird, I've this to several guys I've dated or had a relationship with, 'Why is it that you like me?' And I get this same exact response, 'Because I can be myself around you.' Now mind you, that question wasn't just asked to guys who treated me like dirt, because at first I had to think about it, did that mean they liked me because I would bend with the wind? But really I am quite stubborn at times. I hate losing control over a situation that affects me. I like to know, I hate wondering, I hate games. Bf told me he loves that I don't judge him for his past, and thinks it's great that we can relate to each other like that. Male friend told me he likes that he can have his geeky computer side around me, oh and that what first attracted him to me was my brain, oh and also my sexy legs. But is that answer a good answer, 'Because I can be myself around you'?

[Island Girl]

I met a lot of cool people through him, and do recall always having a blast with him when we spent time together.

 

That is what it is about at this point.

 

Fun - no drama -- cool people -- a great summer to look forward to.

 

Good call on this point. You know, I may have been able to over look some things, but this email really put the icing on the cake. Do you think she anticipated this? She really does come off as unitelligent, so I don't know how well thought out any of this could be. I'm also really curious as too how all of a sudden she has a man, and is okay with bf wanting only me.

 

I don't know that she anticipated this. She is an idiot so I can't imagine she does very much thinking in general let alone pondering actions and consequences.

 

The bottom line is she dated him before (that doesn't speak well of him) and she has boundary issues where he is concerned. She has boundary issues as far as his relationship - and you.

 

All of that would cause me to be "Audi" until she was further out of the picture. Like peripherally in the outer circle.

 

I have endlessly told him, how would you feel if our roles were reversed. He could only tell me how much he'd dislike it, but then go on how he'd try to understand and see that in the end it will be better.

 

Okay. Big problem. He should have listened the first time.

And if he didn't get it - he may have needed time number two.

 

But endlessly? No frickin' way I'd be wasting any more breath.

 

His reasoning is that he puts you through needless crap because eventually it will be better? HA!

 

"Okay, then eventually when it IS better, contact me then and if I'm still around and interested we can talk about it."

 

I would also explain that it would be different if it was a problem you were facing together, etc. But this is just subjecting you to an understandably uncomfortable situation that is in no way beneficial to the relationship (in fact detrimental). That is just crap. It is treating you like crap too. And then he expects you should just take it?

[carhill]

But is that answer a good answer, 'Because I can be myself around you'?

 

Unknown. Is it good for you?

 

My answer would be "you inspire me to be a better person and I love that feeling".

[thegoodlife]

I think maybe it's time you show him how serious you are. He laughed when you mentioned possibly breaking up? That's not something to take lightly, and the fact that he just laughed it off and directly said to you 'I know you don't mean that' worries me. He's getting way too comfortable living in this rather messed up situation, and he's not taking your feelings into consideration whatsoever. He can talk all the sh*t he wants about her to make you feel as though he dislikes her and hates staying there as much as you hate it, but at the end of the day he's still there. If he hates staying with her as much as he says then he's get his lazy ass off the couch and take the not-so-easy road to finding a new place. In this case actions speak much louder than words.

 

I say you drop this guy, for now at least. If he isn't willing to make some changes and get out of this situation all because it's "easy", than you can do way better.

[dreamergrl]

That is what it is about at this point.

 

Fun - no drama -- cool people -- a great summer to look forward to.

 

Yeah it could be great, as long as I leave expectations at the door, and let bf know this is how it's going to be. Even though he okay'd it for me to go out with friend, Sunday came, and I gently reminded him, and then he remembered, and he wasn't happy. Yesterday, he goes, well just because we're in a tough situation doesn't mean you should run off with friend.

 

 

 

I don't know that she anticipated this. She is an idiot so I can't imagine she does very much thinking in general let alone pondering actions and consequences.

 

The bottom line is she dated him before (that doesn't speak well of him) and she has boundary issues where he is concerned. She has boundary issues as far as his relationship - and you.

 

All of that would cause me to be "Audi" until she was further out of the picture. Like peripherally in the outer circle.

 

I think maybe like until he was back in his home state, and she was now out of state I recall a smart a$$ statement I've made to him a few times. "What, are you playing daddy over there?" Baby's daddy is in jail, roomie/pyscho ex was married to him, now divorced, she's 23, and she's playing weird games. I'd never try anything with a man that has a gf. How freaking unclassy. But it was all so weird, because before he contained what he said to me when she was near by (like the I miss yous and wh at not), now it's all free and open talk. I don't get it, it's like a mystery to me, and I have this urge to know what's going on. I hate things unresolved, which is probaby why I have a hard time letting go.

 

 

 

Okay. Big problem. He should have listened the first time.

And if he didn't get it - he may have needed time number two.

 

But endlessly? No frickin' way I'd be wasting any more breath.

 

His reasoning is that he puts you through needless crap because eventually it will be better? HA!

 

"Okay, then eventually when it IS better, contact me then and if I'm still around and interested we can talk about it."

 

I would also explain that it would be different if it was a problem you were facing together, etc. But this is just subjecting you to an understandably uncomfortable situation that is in no way beneficial to the relationship (in fact detrimental). That is just crap. It is treating you like crap too. And then he expects you should just take it?

 

He expects I should just understand. He wants me to look down the road and see that things will be better in a few months. He said he doesn't expect me to be happy about it, but he wants to be able to talk to me without me being angry, but I can't help it, it all angers me, or stresses me. I've got some bad past issues with anxiety disorder, I don't want to re-visit that era of my life. I don't know why he just wants me to take it, I spent an hour hearing how I should not go out with friend, before he changed his mind (for who knows what reason).

 

Unknown. Is it good for you?

 

My answer would be "you inspire me to be a better person and I love that feeling".

 

I'm not sure. It kind of makes me feel good about myself.

[carhill]

Oh, also, I would suggest making a clear distinction in your mind regarding drama guy and new-old guy. If you, in even the smallest of ways, see new-old guy as the backup plan, stop now, especially if he and/or his friendship/interest mean anything to you. Alternative, even comparatively, is OK. Just none of that "I'll date him while I sort out my feelings for drama guy" stuff. It sends the wrong signals, trust me.

[dreamergrl]

Oh, also, I would suggest making a clear distinction in your mind regarding drama guy and new-old guy. If you, in even the smallest of ways, see new-old guy as the backup plan, stop now, especially if he and/or his friendship/interest mean anything to you. Alternative, even comparatively, is OK. Just none of that "I'll date him while I sort out my feelings for drama guy" stuff. It sends the wrong signals, trust me.

 

No, I couldn't even begin to try and have a 'back up'. My mind doesn't work that way. It's like why I can't cheat. I can't have two guys at once, it would over work my head worse then it already is. I'm just trying to sort out how I'm going to handle drama guy, then should he get the boot, if I want to continue to hangout with old-new guy.

[Star Gazer]

Hmm. I feel like I'm the only one on the other side of the fence here. What has she done wrong, exactly?

 

You're calling your BF's roommate "psycho girl." You've also called other women your BFs have dated "psycho." What's with the name calling?

 

Now, this roommate is asking you to stop talking sh*t about HER to your BF when she graciously allows him to use HER phone to contact you. While her email to you was anything but eloquent, it sounded perfectly reasonable to me. I'd probably have done the same thing.

 

I mean, all she's doing is asking you to be respectful to her when she's being respectful to you (letting him use her phone to contact you). She's assuring you there's nothing going on, and encouraging you to stop digging up drama... for your own good. In addition to that, by your own admission, you're not having pleasant conversations with your BF.

 

I'm not sure she's the one causing the trouble here, Dreamr. I'm not sure if it's your insecurities or your communication style with your BF, but I don't think this roommate is a source of problems...

[dreamergrl]

Hmm. I feel like I'm the only one on the other side of the fence here. What has she done wrong, exactly?

 

You're calling your BF's roommate "psycho girl." You've also called other women your BFs have dated "psycho." What's with the name calling?

 

Now, this roommate is asking you to stop talking sh*t about HER to your BF when she graciously allows him to use HER phone to contact you. While her email to you was anything but eloquent, it sounded perfectly reasonable to me. I'd probably have done the same thing.

 

I mean, all she's doing is asking you to be respectful to her when she's being respectful to you (letting him use her phone to contact you). She's assuring you there's nothing going on, and encouraging you to stop digging up drama... for your own good. In addition to that, by your own admission, you're not having pleasant conversations with your BF.

 

I'm not sure she's the one causing the trouble here, Dreamr. I'm not sure if it's your insecurities or your communication style with your BF, but I don't think this roommate is a source of problems...

 

 

Fair enough .. to a point, however, she made a point to tell me, before he left, that she'd be letting him decide if he wants him or her. Things came straight from her and sure as h3ll don't lead me to believe she's being all innocent. I left a message for him that I had to go to the hospital, she never relayed it. She openly tried to get him to sign a year lease with her. I expressed how I felt about her and the situation to bf on the phone, which I don't see as wrong. I'm not going to bottle up how I feel. She started off this adventure with him there, wanting to hook up with him. A real woman wouldn't try to get with a guy who has a girlfriend, and she clearly had that intent. All of a sudden it just changed? Sorry, too much just doesn't make sense to me. She came at me before he even left telling me 'how it was going to be'. She claims she's trying to be nice and let him use her phone to call me, yet I hear her in the background ALL the time, talking to him at the same time as I am, EVERYTIME we try to talk, she's always taking that time to talk to him too. He always has to say "hold on a second" and reply to her, over and over again. She knows what she's doing. I'm not stupid. But yeah, it's all me. I'm doing everything wrong. It's all my insecurities. Because how hard would it be for her to shut her mouth when we talk. She can talk to him any flipping time, and yet she chooses to wait until we're talking. She's not doing me any favors, she's doing him favors because she wants more then what she says she does.

 

She came out and admitted to me, and other people, she wanted to be more then just friends with him, then it's confirmed by bf that she'd try to make it like they were more then friends.

[Star Gazer]

I'm always amazed at women who point the finger at an instigating woman, rather than their own BF/H. He CHOSE to live with her, knowing this. Why? Because it's "easiest" for him? Uh... okay.

 

Your last post is (understandably) filled with anger. However, I can't believe this doesn't translate to your interactions with your BF and this woman. Do you want to be "that girl"?

 

Is he really worth this... drama???

[dreamergrl]

I'm always amazed at women who point the finger at an instigating woman, rather than their own BF/H. He CHOSE to live with her, knowing this. Why? Because it's "easiest" for him? Uh... okay.

 

Your last post is (understandably) filled with anger. However, I can't believe this doesn't translate to your interactions with your BF and this woman. Do you want to be "that girl"?

 

Is he really worth this... drama???

 

Trust me, I've shown plenty of anger at him and pointed a finger at him too. I'm not saying he's done nothing wrong, but I find it just as disgusting that a girl would purposely attempt to get with a guy who has a girlfriend. All that email was, was a reaction to her getting rejected or some twisted way to make things how she wants them. But yeah, he did put himself in the position, and now I'm trying to pull myself out of the situation. I'm sorry I can't do it with a happy smile on my face. I don't care what anyone says, I will NOT take the blame for the actions of HIM or HER. And if I have a reaction to what is going on, then so be it. I'm allowed that.

[Star Gazer]

Trust me, I've shown plenty of anger at him. I'm not saying he's done nothing wrong, but I find it just as disgusting that a girl would purposely attempt to get with a guy who has a girlfriend. All that email was, was a reaction to her getting rejected. But yeah, he did put himself in the position, and now I'm trying to pull myself out of the situation. I'm sorry I can't do it with a happy smile on my face.

 

I hear you. I agree that she's a dispicable person, if she is actually pursuing him. However, by his own words, as well as hers, that's not happening. So... is the "pursuit" perhaps a figment of your imagination/insecurities??

 

Also, again... is he worth this drama? Should you even have to express your anger towards him so early in the game?? IME, drama like this doesn't usually follow those who are undeserving of it (HIM, not you).

[dreamergrl]

I hear you. I agree that she's a dispicable person, if she is actually pursuing him. However, by his own words, as well as hers, that's not happening. So... is the "pursuit" perhaps a figment of your imagination/insecurities??

 

SG, she openly admitted to not just me, but other people that she wanted to be more then just friends. So if that is not the case now, then something changed, but that is how it was. I know I've got my insecurities, but give me some credit please. Now I'm just suppose to believe that she suddenly has a boyfriend, that she all of a sudden just doesn't want him like that anymore? I mean she admits it before, bf confirms she didn't like that he had a gf, and tried to control the situation more. And he never told me that she wasn't perusing him, he told me that he has no desire to be with her.

 

Also, again... is he worth this drama? Should you even have to express your anger towards him so early in the game?? IME, drama like this doesn't usually follow those who are undeserving of it (HIM, not you).

 

Nothing is worth this drama. I just don't know how to find the courage to walk away from it. Everything was doing so well, with no more issues. Then bam, this crap. The only thing I'm happy about is knowing that I could work through certain things I didn't think I could.

[Star Gazer]

SG, she openly admitted to not just me, but other people that she wanted to be more then just friends. So if that is not the case now, then something changed, but that is how it was. I know I've got my insecurities, but give me some credit please. Now I'm just suppose to believe that she suddenly has a boyfriend, that she all of a sudden just doesn't want him like that anymore?

 

Why not? Hasn't this ever happened to you? Haven't you ever liked someone, and then over time, not? Particularly after you meet someone else? What's so hard to believe about that?

 

Nothing is worth this drama. I just don't know how to find the courage to walk away from it. Everything was doing so well, with no more issues. Then bam, this crap. The only thing I'm happy about is knowing that I could work through certain things I didn't think I could.

 

Being alone (which I'd recommend) is far better, and calmer, and easier, than dealing with this crap. It wouldn't even take courage to bail on bullsh*t...right?

 

Please don't jump from this guy to the old guy. You seriously need some down time. Some alone time. Don't validate yourself by having a BF.

[dreamergrl]

Why not? Hasn't this ever happened to you? Haven't you ever liked someone, and then over time, not? Particularly after you meet someone else? What's so hard to believe about that?

 

Then it would be just as easy for her to turn around and decides she wants bf again.

 

 

 

Being alone (which I'd recommend) is far better, and calmer, and easier, than dealing with this crap. It wouldn't even take courage to bail on bullsh*t...right?

 

Please don't jump from this guy to the old guy. You seriously need some down time. Some alone time. Don't validate yourself by having a BF.

 

I've been spending alone time since he's left. It's not like I was trying to go have a back up. I'm not looking to guy jump. I just want to be able to be around someone that doesn't bring me stress and drama.

[Star Gazer]

Then it would be just as easy for her to turn around and decides she wants bf again.

 

Why is the focus always on HER?

 

Don't you realize that ANY WOMAN on the street could "decide" that she wants your BF?

 

You can't control other women wanting your BF. Neither can he. You either have to trust him, or not. If you don't... if you're as concerned as you are... then you need to seriously reconsider why you're in this relationship.

[dreamergrl]

Why is the focus always on HER?

 

Don't you realize that ANY WOMAN on the street could "decide" that she wants your BF?

 

You can't control other women wanting your BF. Neither can he. You either have to trust him, or not. If you don't... if you're as concerned as you are... then you need to seriously reconsider why you're in this relationship.

 

But any other woman on the street isn't living with him. Isn't spending all this time with him. It'd be a lot easier to deal with if she didn't start this out with trying to get with him. Doing every day things that we used to do together. Hell, girls have hit on him since we've been together, but that didn't bother me, why because he wasn't living with them. He didn't go to spending his time with me, to spending time with them. That's why it's hard for me. And I can't control anything except to walk away. That irritates the crap out of me. I don't like not knowing what's going on, beyond what I'm told. I was doing just find until she started the crap last Friday. It was hard, but I was dealing well with it. Now I'm not. What can I say.

[Star Gazer]

But any other woman on the street isn't living with him. Isn't spending all this time with him. It'd be a lot easier to deal with if she didn't start this out with trying to get with him. Doing every day things that we used to do together. Hell, girls have hit on him since we've been together, but that didn't bother me, why because he wasn't living with them. He didn't go to spending his time with me, to spending time with them. That's why it's hard for me. And I can't control anything except to walk away. That irritates the crap out of me. I don't like not knowing what's going on, beyond what I'm told. I was doing just find until she started the crap last Friday. It was hard, but I was dealing well with it. Now I'm not. What can I say.

 

If he's choosing to spend time with her, instead of you, that's on him. Not her.

 

This isn't a good situation for you. I hate seeing someone so vibrant, with so much to offer, wasting it on the unworthy... Just walk. Stop talking about it, and just do it.

[carhill]

I need some female friends, but that's not working out too well either.

 

Missed this and I'd suggest working further on it. Good idea

[dreamergrl]

If he's choosing to spend time with her, instead of you, that's on him. Not her.

 

This isn't a good situation for you. I hate seeing someone so vibrant, with so much to offer, wasting it on the unworthy... Just walk. Stop talking about it, and just do it.

 

 

It's not just on her or just on him. She's done her fair share of bullsh*t, as he put himself where he's at. I really don't think I have all that much to offer anymore. All the things I used to feel good about just keep getting more depleted. She can have him for all I care. I'm going to go have fun, be stress free, and enjoy spending time with other people. And not to HAVE a bf, but to be around people that don't make me feel like I'm less then what I am.

[Kamille]

Ok woah time-out!

 

I have many comments, most of wich are contradictory

 

1) by reacting this way, you are proving her assumptions that you are drama right. So let's take a break, take a step back and give yourself the time to assess the situation differently. There is no emergency here, the situation isn't going to change by tomorow. The only thing that might change by tomorow are your own emotions. I feel like a parakeet, but what I do when I need perspective is hit the gym and do a good round of cardio. I highly recommend - if only because it'll help you sleep better tonight.

 

2) I agree with SG. Stop focusing on her. This is between your bf and you... She's his problem not yours. Why are you letting yourself get dragged in?

 

3) From what you wrote here, all you have to confirm that she has a crush on your bf is hearsay - and what's more, hearsay that comes from him. Have you ever noticed that men - and women- tend to overestimate the amount of interest other people are showing?

 

Ok. Now. Go to the gym.

[MeMyself&I]

Hi dreamergirl.

 

I have always struggled with what others think about me and did to me too....in the past. I've learned a lot in the last few years. I'm also older than you though too.

 

The bottom line is what SG, kamille and many others have said. You can't control her actions, you can't control his. You can only control what you do and how you let people treat you.

 

This is continuing because you are allowing it too. Do what kamille says and go take a break. Think about what you want from a relationship, think about why you are allowing your emotions to be influenced by your boyfriends actions (and hers). If the situation is not acceptable to you, why let it stay that way??

 

I do see that you are leaning toward ending this unhealthy cycle.

 

Be firm tell him what your expectations are from him and how you should be treated. For him to laugh off your suggestion of breaking up with him is very disrespectful. It shows he knows he has you and he can do whatever he wants and you'll put up with it. And that's because you are allowing him to treat you that way.

 

I interpreted the e-mail msg from the roommate the similar to SG. Confrontational and immature but also as sticking up for herself. It is wrong for her to make moves on your man (if she is). But it's also not her responsibility to loan out her phone to him. Why is your boyfriend having eveyone pat him on the head and make excuses for him. He needs to man-up, grow some balls and quit being the middle-man in this triangular drama cycle.

 

I recently made some tough choices about friends and men in my life. It was hard to cut them out but ohhhhhhh.........to know how happy I am right now without their "drama". It would have made that hard choice so much easier at that time. Often the right choices are hard.

 

Believe me. I know it's tough when your emotions are involved. But it's so true!!! LIFE IS TOO SHORT! I actively pursue happiness, love and laughter in my life now. LIFE IS GOOD!

[dreamergrl]

If things weren't confusing me enough... I got another email, one from her and one from him, both extremely nice. A really long one from him, expressing how bad he feels that things are the way they are. It's like I'm mad, but I'm not. I don't know what to think anymore. I'm so freaking confused. I get caught up in whatever one thinks and says, and I'm still so lost.