anhonestfella Posted April 20, 2009 Posted April 20, 2009 Two weeks ago I was in despair, splitting with my ex partner, I was an emotional wreck, feelings of such low self esteem, betrayal, ignored by the ex, but enough to keep me dangling on a string, he has simply dissapeared and I felt so hurt and used, paying for holidays catering to his every whim, feeling inadequate as he pointed out my faults (as he saw them). Making nasty jibes at me, publicly and privately, never cuddling kissing or touching me, using sex as a weapon against me, if he felt I hadn't been good then no sex..... Being broken down until I had no mind of my own left, slowly being sucked of life, and now its all much clearer to me.... the answer...... A narcissist through and through, I am completely amazed at how my life was with this man, completely controlled and used lied and manipulated, the full extent is only just becoming clear, the lies he has told my friends and people around me, even wrecked my chances of new jobs, be aware that they are around and once they have what they want they move on, the problem was that he underestimated me, since I left two weeks ago, I have got a new job, and the kind of job I wanted, I bought new clothes, I look and feel well, I have been out clubbing again meeting new people my friends have all returned to protect me and take me out and about, some people who know him have also come up to me and said he is crazy, I still fel confusion and miss him but im moving on and up, I have had to use all of my resources to begin again, I didn't even realise I had the strength but I have....... Im sure he will return once he sees im doing well, but im ready, be aware of the signs, they cant hide them long...... Do you think he will return or move to a new source???
TaraMaiden Posted April 20, 2009 Posted April 20, 2009 Rudeness is a weak man's show of strength... Falsely powerful people do not like to be confronted with genuine power. He will not try to come back because your recovery has been swift and thorough. You don't wish him to return, do you? Or is it simply because you feel you want to say: "Look at me! You thought you had me under control, but I am so much better off without you now! I am happy and successful, and all without you!" let your life and joy be testimony to these things. You have no need to show anyone anything!
Author anhonestfella Posted April 20, 2009 Author Posted April 20, 2009 No I don't want him back at all, im sure he is spying though, trying to find out what im up to, however I definately do not want him back, all I feel is relief and im a much better person, my friends have pointed out that they now have their bubbly fun loving friend back and im free....... He has a life sentence I just got parole LOL!!! Thanks for the response
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