LadyV Posted May 6, 2009 Posted May 6, 2009 Okay, so I know he has no way of contacting me...today, I almost called the phone company to unblock his phone number. I then quickly felt this pang in my heart, reminding me yet again that as each day passes, I am one step closer to healing. Reading all these posts, I realize I am NOT a lone at all... 9Lives, you even said it yourself..."He cares so dont believe it is a cake walk for him..." I would almost prefer to know that he doesn't care...Yet, don't want to know the he has moved on either. Hence, the blocking of the social sites. Although I almost stalked her site today....I didn't because of the pain I know it will bring. It comes in waves...I'm sure once I am back home, with my kids and back in my own element, it will be much easier. I haven't cried once...probably because of all the tears he brought me when he broke up with me and now it's just a matter of getting over it. He hurt me so horribly the day he broke up with me, then he contacted me again, and once again, I find myself getting weaker the more he is in my life. I'm done with it...I can't wait until this is all just a memory, and when I can walk down the street and not worry about seeing him, or hearing about him and a new girl...that would make me so very happy!! Day by day...I'm trying to just take it Day by Day. How are you doing 9lives? And others who may read this post??
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