vessv6l Posted April 18, 2009 Posted April 18, 2009 I need to get some things down. I keep having these thoughts of doing something really stupid. I know its stupid but it seems like such an easy solution that i can reach for. I feel so alone and i dont think people would care too much. the world would continue to turn if im here or not. I havent spoken to anyone about this because i thought it was just a phase but i cant sleep atm, and the thoughts just keep coming. im ashamed to admit that i feel this way, that i think these things. i thought i was stronger then this. im scared of the future and what it holds. i dont want to grow old alone. I hate what this girl has reduced me too. She has made me feel ashamed, embarrassed, worthless. i feel as though i want to spite the female population because of her, turn my back on women. because of her i dont feel that i should trust anyone again. i hate that she effects my life still and i hate myself for allowing her to do it. i have no faith, no hope. i dont want to feel like this anymore
You'reasian Posted April 18, 2009 Posted April 18, 2009 Women are people; they are human beings. There are so many of them - some smokin' hot, some not - some warm and friendly, some cold and guarded. Your ex-girlfriend is one person. Her traits do not represent every girl out there. There may be others like her, but chances are there are others that are not. Sorry that you've gone through a tough time with your girlfriend. It does suck, but there's no reason to go emo about it. You're gonna be a little sad a little down, but keep yourself active and on the up - don't be a pansy about it, brush it off and get back up!!!
DJMarky Posted April 18, 2009 Posted April 18, 2009 Hold in there dude. Don't do anything stupid. All over the world there are numerous people all feeling the same way, you aren't alone. You will look back on this day in the future and laugh. You will wonder what the hell you were thinking! Also, what is this talk about dying alone? Break ups happen, it is (unfortunately) a necessary part of life, you will find someone else. When you hit rock bottom things can only get better.
fofiffs Posted April 18, 2009 Posted April 18, 2009 Bro don't do anything stupid, your not going through this alone too. I too have a very similar situation like you. My ex of almost two years also broke up with me. She too was talking to some guy and was giving her emotional reassurance and telling her she deserved better. Yeah there were times were I didn't tell her I love her and times where I might have neglected her needs. But who doesn't. No relationship is perfect. In a relationship, both parties do take each other for granted at times. Like your ex, my ex is now in a relatioship with this guy she's with. I felt used, worthless, and so depreesed. It's been almost two months now that we have been broken up. But it does get better over time. When she first broke up with me, I thought that I couldn't live without her, my whole world was crushed, and I wanted to also do something stupid. But trust me it does get better. It still hurts at times but not as bad as it use to.
Author vessv6l Posted April 21, 2009 Author Posted April 21, 2009 That was a very low point for me. I have moved back from that although i still feel like a failure at times. Appreciate the support you guys have offered. Wont do anything stupid, just needed to put it to words. 5 days till i leave this place. Each road i drive down can can remind me of when i drove down them with her. Looking forward to replacing all memories of her with fresh ones. Im going to forget her completely, shes not worth remembering
PinkRibbon Posted April 21, 2009 Posted April 21, 2009 I think everyone has thoughts of doing something "stupid" at one time or another. I know I have and I know I have recently but to go through this and come out alive is what keeps me going. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Cheesy but it is true. Look forward to where ever you are heading. A change of scenery is great! New people and new places always makes one feel good!
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