Alan430 Posted April 15, 2009 Posted April 15, 2009 Hi everyone, Just wanted to get my feelings out. Its been several months since my wife walked out. I felt i was doing so well, i truly felt i was moving on in my heart. However this week has been rough. I took my son to disney world 2 weeks ago with my sister and mom, and last weekend i spent the weekend with them since i had to drive down to pick him up. *he stayed and visited the remainder of the week.* But this week i have felt horribly depressed and missing her like it was the first week she left. I have been on pain killers for for a week and a half and wonder if this is the culprit of my depression. Anyways i am always appreciative on any advice or insight. I found my self walking around the house and looking at things she has bought over the years and recalling old memories. I am not a cryer but have been almost in tears all day. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!! Just two weeks ago i was feeling great and was ok if i was to spend the remainder of my life without a SO..... Was it the vicoden or spending all that time with my family (they live six hours away) and comming to a place where i really only know my son and wife. anyways thanks for reading my post.
sinatra Posted April 15, 2009 Posted April 15, 2009 Alan430, Sorry that you're going through this time of depression. The first piece of advice I can give is to stop using the pain meds. You need to talk with a therapist/doctor about maybe getting on some anti-depressants for a short time to help you deal with this. I'm no doctor but I'm sure they aren't helping you at this point. I'm only 6 weeks into my separation/divorce and it's very grueling and painful. I'm not sure where I stand but I'm pretty sure I'm heading to a divorce and it's a scary thought. I think you really need to get out of the house or call some close friends at this point. Try not to put yourself through that torture by looking at all the memories. I would take most of them down if possible and put them away until you move further along in your healing process. Do know that there's nothing wrong with what you're feeling it's normal and is part of the process. It's easy for me to say but very hard to practice. I have a hard time getting out of bed and missing her all the time. Try to do what you did to get you to where you were before this period. Anyway I hope you can think of the positive progress you've made and keep looking towards the future and not the past.
Gunny376 Posted April 15, 2009 Posted April 15, 2009 Ad's and pain killers aside ~ your literally are going through withdrawal from the naturally bio-chemicals your brain induced into your system to fall in love with the STBX to begin with. I myself swore off women, dating, mating, and relationships until I could get myself to the point to where I could really care less if I'm ever in another relationship again? And I won't tell you how long its taken me to get to that point, but I would have been better off had I learned to do so at much younger age. Lonely? Phifffff,.............. You want true love, devotion, companionship, and unconditional love ~ to the grave "love" ~ get a dog!
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