takingcakesman Posted April 14, 2009 Posted April 14, 2009 I shook, my body quivering with such violence that I thought my muscles would burst. She had denied me. Again. Except that wouldn't have been a bad thing. You see, every time she denies wanting a relationship with me... she leaves a mote of hope hovering in the air. "I'm not sure if I meant what I said earlier." I laugh. I'm not desensitized, but I'm at the point where I can let it roll off until I have a chance to deal with it, alone, after my housemate goes to bed, when I sit up in my room, adrenaline blasting through my veins, wishing I could sleep instead of raging at her. And so I shake. And quiver. And groan. And once the anger is out, I cry. I've heard this story from so many, and now I'm living it. It's time to up the ante. This one will end different; I have what it takes to pull through. I'm in it to win it.
Author takingcakesman Posted April 14, 2009 Author Posted April 14, 2009 I'm just a guy writing his little heart out.
Author takingcakesman Posted April 14, 2009 Author Posted April 14, 2009 Also, we have the same occupation and live in the same city. But don't tell... it's a secret.
Author takingcakesman Posted April 14, 2009 Author Posted April 14, 2009 My question is: My relationship with this girl was so full of love and caring. Then we had sex. Everything was flipped on its head from then on. She doesn't seem to respect me, and I have trouble respecting her. The moments when we actually connect are still glorious, but beyond that, there seems to be this lingering hatred between us. What gives?
D-Lish Posted April 14, 2009 Posted April 14, 2009 If you look like your avatar, you shouldn't have a problem being denied by anyone- male or female:eek:
Author takingcakesman Posted April 14, 2009 Author Posted April 14, 2009 If you look like your avatar, you shouldn't have a problem being denied by anyone- male or female:eek: My first day here and already you're making me blush!
D-Lish Posted April 14, 2009 Posted April 14, 2009 My first day here and already you're making me blush! I don't think it's your first day here... maybe your first day with your new alias- but I am happy to play along. If you guys love each other before sex and hate each other after.... Are you Catholic?
Author takingcakesman Posted April 14, 2009 Author Posted April 14, 2009 I don't think it's your first day here... maybe your first day with your new alias- but I am happy to play along. If you guys love each other before sex and hate each other after.... Are you Catholic? Haha, no, not Catholic. It's so weird, though. It's like she's trying to push me away right when we were getting super-emotionally close. A couple of my guy friends had similar situations and I'm worried mine will turn out the same (i.e., me not being with the girl). This girl is very special to me, so here I am spending a sleepless night posting my woes. What makes you think I'm just a new alias?
D-Lish Posted April 14, 2009 Posted April 14, 2009 You just have a similar writing style to another poster that likes to switch things up often... I am not sure why you lose respect for each other after sex and why it affects both of you. I was only have joking about the Catholic thing- there is a lot of guilt/shame intertwined with sex. Maybe it isn't hatred of each other, but fear of losing emotional control.
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