babybop Posted April 13, 2009 Posted April 13, 2009 I am in the middle of a break up, Due to the fact i feel for 4 years my relationship is living a lie, I am a mother of 2 , and and i do have 1 child with this man, which makes it even tougher...I broke it off, because i have some things i have" one i don't trust him" he has made it hard for me to, Lies upon lies, calls on his cell phone at 12am and he says he has no clue who it is? but the calls are coming in on his cell phone, the last time this happened was when my son was 6 months old he was talking to this girl" and they went on a date, my son is now 4, i found out because text messages were coming in and i happened to see his phone....he told me he was going out with his brother to play pool? hard to believe so i gave him the benefit of the doubt...well i never really got closure out of it, just more like he likes to avoid the whole topic, well i don't feel like i love him anymore, i am not sure i know i am hurt by this all, i feel like my emotions are being played with, he seems to not to care about them at all.....I lose sleep over this...he is walking on this world like nothing is happening, I needed to put closure to this relationship or it would continue like this for a long time and i would go insane... How do you get over this without someone that you thought loved you but in your mind he never did, it seems to me he tossed those words around to fast... love is not a switch, i know i will always love him but now that kind of love.... he hides everything, like no one calls the house for him ever, not even his parents, and my family has excepted him even though they know alot of this stuff thats going on, i know his family has never even gave me a chance ever.... i am so confused right now....But the thing is i am here till june 27th till my children are out of school, so makes it even tougher. Because i am staying here till the children can finish the year and i can focus on finding a place while i am at my mom's... Hope you understand, I know its probably not clear, but my mind is so confused right now, and i don't have anyone to talk to... thanks for listening.....
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