Inflikted Posted April 11, 2009 Posted April 11, 2009 Before I get into this, let me just say, I know there's really nothing to be done, I just... really feel the need to vent right now. Here's the background info; I've had feelings for a certain girl for many many years, going all the way back to when we met as kids. It had been a few years since I had had any contact with her, though; well, that is, until just over a year ago. By dumb luck, I stumbled onto her MySpace, and I decided to write to her. She seemed to enjoy writing to me, for a while, and I could tell my feelings were bubbling back up. Unfortunately, my messages to her started getting a bit... "clingy", I guess would be the term. :/ I didn't really mean for that to happen... Anyway, when things started going downhill, I quickly pulled the trigger and asked her about meeting up, in a casual way, to catch up, etc., and she never replied. I stopped writing to her for months after that, and of course, didn't hear anything from her. I finally wrote her a little message just trying to get back into the loop, and she seemed to be willing to write to me again, but then she started backing way off again. So, about a month ago, I decided to seek an end to a means, and I wrote her a "final" message; I acknowledged that when we were kids, I had feelings for her, and I said that I couldn't help but be curious to see if there would still be anything there today. I told her I knew I had acted weird on MySpace a lot, but that I'm just not good with this "online" stuff. I peppered in some humor to try to keep it upbeat, and I basically ended it by asking one more time if her and I could meet up in person some time. And again, no answer. So that should be the end of it. And believe it or not, ever since, I think I've taken it pretty well. Somehow, I've been managing to push it out of my mind, for the time being, but these last couple days, thoughts of her just keep getting into my head. For some reason, she's on my mind a lot, all of a sudden. Today, it's been hitting me real bad, for some reason; she keeps popping into my mind, and I just really miss getting to write with her online. At least it was something, yanno? So, I dunno what I really hoped to accomplish with this topic... Like I said, I'm aware that there's nothing more to be done, with this girl; maybe I just needed to vent? I don't know... @_@
DJMarky Posted April 11, 2009 Posted April 11, 2009 It should subside quickly. You never developed a relationship with this girl beyond talking to each other over the internet, which did not become anything more than chit chat. You are just infatuated. Hopefully you have learned something out of this. Girls do not like it when a guy appears to be needy/clingy, next time be confident, funny and never appear desperate to see her, act casual, and do not persist, if she denies you act like you couldn't care less, 'oh that's a shame, well I will still enjoy it with (whoever)'. Learn from your mistakes and move on. This is not the end of the world mate! It will pass!
Author Inflikted Posted April 14, 2009 Author Posted April 14, 2009 I guess... It's just so hard not to be curious about what could be, yanno? Back when we did know each other in person years ago, she had the coolest personality, and were I not so shy, I think we could've been great together. She was the first girl I've ever really had feelings for, the first girl I've ever been crazy about, and heck, I'd even say the first girl I've ever been in love with. I think one of the biggest reasons I can't stop thinking about her, is because she's also the ONLY girl thus far I've felt that way about, and that really scares me. I mean, I think I have decent enough opportunities to meet new girls; but the problem is, I rarely feel anything more than friendship for them (which is a mutual thing; can't recall any girl that's ever been interested in me that I failed to notice). Sure, sometimes I'll meet a girl that I think is kinda cute, or nice, but that's just not enough for me to go on, for some reason. I want the type of feeling I got from the girl I made this topic about in the first place, yanno? I want to feel that "click", that chemistry. The longer I go on without finding some one else that makes me feel that way, the more I look back and feel down about that girl from my past.
Meaplus3 Posted April 14, 2009 Posted April 14, 2009 I guess... It's just so hard not to be curious about what could be, yanno? I do know. I was writing back and forth with a wonderful guy online for many, many months. Really thought it had potential to go some where IRL.. and then one day he was gone never a word again. That was almost 1 year ago. I keep holding onto I wonder what could have come out of it? So my advice to you is to try and let go of that question. And I need to take my own advice here. I mean, I think I have decent enough opportunities to meet new girls; but the problem is, I rarely feel anything more than friendship for them (which is a mutual thing; can't recall any girl that's ever been interested in me that I failed to notice). Sure, sometimes I'll meet a girl that I think is kinda cute, or nice, but that's just not enough for me to go on, for some reason. I want the type of feeling I got from the girl I made this topic about in the first place, yanno? I want to feel that "click", that chemistry. The longer I go on without finding some one else that makes me feel that way, the more I look back and feel down about that girl from my past. Well then you need to get back out there and look around for the girl who you have chemistry with. Will it be easy? Probably not. But, in order to move on, you need to put your best foot forward and try. Looking back will only keep you stuck.. so take a leap forward what do you have to loose? Best wishes. Mea:)
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