RogueAC Posted April 2, 2009 Posted April 2, 2009 Hey all. Been a while sine I last posted. Glad to read that some are doing well. Totally feeling all those that are still struggling and hurting. Life has been so busy and I’ve been coping okay but I am having one of those difficult days. Had a dream last night about the ex – it has been a while since this has happened – in the dream we had a long conversation. I don’t remember the exact context, just the phrase, “rogue, I know you are here.” Those kinds of dreams have such a sense of reality. I feel sad and frustrated and lonely today—like I was actually with him. This break/heartbreak has been one of the most challenging things I've yet to encounter. On the one hand, I know that I am stronger today than I ever was. I have worked hard and really improved things in my life that I didn’t even know needed improving. I have actually connected and opened up to people, and developed lasting friendships. For the first time my life I have my own hobbies, interests and am finally starting to develop a real sense of self. Plus, I have learned some really valuable lessons about boundaries and communication. But sometimes, it still really hurts. 8 months and it still hurts and I still miss him.
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