set backs are ****e

[Peter_pan]

just want to curl up and die sometimes. when you look back and realise how good you had it.

 

its been over a year and tbh i wont meet some one better. i was an idiot to no contact the love of my life so far.

 

the single life has been a lot of fun but when it boils down to it, its much nicer to have someone you trust and can turn to in any situation..

 

basically me having a rant but so what. ****ing hurts that what once was is long gone and over and its never coming back.

 

i feel like the only person to close of my contact between me and the person who was the biggest person in my life. i dream about her constantly and wish i had just not ignored her.

 

but at the same time staying in touch would have been just as hard

 

***ing pissed off. i want to just ****ing rewind the clock so bad. i wish i was a better stronger person back then, i would have probably easily won her back and everything would be fine.

 

yes i know we argued but we also shared the best moments in each others lives

 

how could she move on so fast??/

 

 

im A ****ing idiot anyway. she has long moved on and here i am thinking of her. she is A DIFFERENT ****ING PERSON.

 

and that just ****ing hurts.

 

she o so loves her BF and all that. and i am just someone she NEVERA THINKS ABOUT.

 

i want to just die. i went through so much HURT because of her and she didnt even CARE.

 

its really hurtfull. I thought we had something special.

 

going to delete all the pictures of her and me now. because whats the ****ing point in keeping them. she has been happy ****ing some guy for over a year whislt i have been going through hell.

 

 

im glad i dont live here in the same city as her. i wish i never met her.

 

i never knew she would be so heartless.

 

 

im so pissed off that when i emailed her, her bf replied; i want to just kick his head in tbh, yet its funny because he is HER BF, he has A RIGHT to say what he wants if i email her.

 

yey im in such a ****ty rut. PURELY ****S ME OFF that she is still with him after all that time, and she is saying stuff like, he is the best person in the world that makes me so happy and shakes at the knees and im lucky to live with him etc

 

how can i not be bitter? how?

 

its all ****ing bollocks. looking at her bebo ****, we never existed. why am i stuck in the past. yet she moved on and is happy as someone who had never even shared a minute with me .

 

ouch i want someone to shoot me. my self worth is actually nothing right now. i thought i was doing strong but clearly we didnt mean anything and i am just a "mistake" in her view.

 

afterall she has her "baby".

 

i thought she was better than what she was. and what she did. maybe it was all my FAULT. and i should have stepped up my game but i was to weak and obviously nothing on her bf.

 

im just ****ing worthless.

[Peter_pan]

sorry bout the rant. just needed to get it off my chest.

 

to sum it up, i am just hurt that someone can move on within weeks and never be sorry and never have regrets. makes me think she never truly loved me like she said she did.

 

but then maybe she feels like i turned my back on her? either way it dosnt matter really... just even more frustrating

[nick d]

Hi,

I just wanted to let you know that I really understand your pain. Me and my gf were together 4 years and recently broke up. She has been going to the club and parties and **** like that. I start to wish I hadn't met her, but then you have to think back to all the good times you had together even though it hurts so bad. I feel just as you do. I feel as though i'm worthless now and sometimes I just want to die because the pain hurts so bad! But that's love and it's part of life I'm sorry man, I really do understand what your going through.

[nick d]

And I guarantee she has regrets.. She thinks about you and misses you at times i'm sure of it. Girls will always do whatever they can to find a "rebound guy". If only there was a way you could talk to her.. Then you could start reminding her of all the good times you had together.. Then she would start thinking about you more and missing you more.

 

sorry bout the rant. just needed to get it off my chest.

 

to sum it up, i am just hurt that someone can move on within weeks and never be sorry and never have regrets. makes me think she never truly loved me like she said she did.

 

but then maybe she feels like i turned my back on her? either way it dosnt matter really... just even more frustrating

[Peter_pan]

And I guarantee she has regrets.. She thinks about you and misses you at times i'm sure of it. Girls will always do whatever they can to find a "rebound guy". If only there was a way you could talk to her.. Then you could start reminding her of all the good times you had together.. Then she would start thinking about you more and missing you more.

 

yeah well when i saw her in person after a year of nc, she did cry. but only after i told her how she put me through so much pain.

 

its all to late to mend anything now dude. she has been with the guy for over a year. i should be over it now to. she also met this guy at around the time of going out clubbing etc. he worked in the bar, she got a job there, and before you could say anything she was "seeing" him. she told me about him through an email/ whilst i was on a holiday trip.

 

i really thought she was different. she said she wanted to stay in contact, but i told her it was to hard etc. then i never heard from her again. and when i did try to reach out, she ignored me.

 

plus she tried to tell me she had lost my number, but i know thats not true. as she got it off my best mate when she saw him.

 

and her reason for not txting me back is because she thought i wanted her back....

[playlislay]

Juts out of interest (Ive tried finding your story in your posts but there are too many of them!), did you break up with her? Or did she break up with you?

 

I think its awful when you feel that you could of and should of done more to get them back, but at the end of the day if they really wanted to be with you and work through things, they would.

 

Just remember that the love always remains, no matter how bitter you or the other person is. My ex hates me, so I gather, but at the same time I know how much he loves/loved me.

He hates because I hurt him and now I hate because he hurt me by avoiding me.

 

Love and hate, such close emotions.

 

Good luck hunny, the pain will go eventually xx

[Peter_pan]

Juts out of interest (Ive tried finding your story in your posts but there are too many of them!), did you break up with her? Or did she break up with you?

 

I think its awful when you feel that you could of and should of done more to get them back, but at the end of the day if they really wanted to be with you and work through things, they would.

 

Just remember that the love always remains, no matter how bitter you or the other person is. My ex hates me, so I gather, but at the same time I know how much he loves/loved me.

He hates because I hurt him and now I hate because he hurt me by avoiding me.

 

Love and hate, such close emotions.

 

Good luck hunny, the pain will go eventually xx

 

thanks, im mainly annoyed that i still think about her yet she has been living her life and is soo happy etc and i have been hung up on her for so long, its madness. and i know i should live my life and move on. but set backs happen, and when they do, they really hurt. i realise i was a lonely person before i met her and i was lucky to have some one who was so kind and trust worthy and whos family felt like my own.

 

we moved in together to young and arguments arose. i think it was un avoidable to be honest.

 

we mutually split up at the time as we were not happy. and things were on the mend and looking up, however when he got involved there was nothing i could do or say to get her back. so without a 3rd party i believe we would have got back together.

 

i know at the time i did all i could to get her back, with all the strength i had back then, but lookin back i realise i would have been needy and annoying probably. and its to tempting to think what if etc

 

but as i say, she is clearly head over heels about him now etc and shares her flat with him. and i am just fixated on what was, regardless of how much i try and move on.

 

and i am so angry at myself for posting this stuff here, cause certain people have helped so much and i dont want to abuse that and let them down as much as i dont want to let myself down! i dont expect any replies anymore because i am literally going in circles and it seems like i can never get out.

[Biker2007]

PP,

 

going to delete all the pictures of her and me now. because whats the ****ing point in keeping them. she has been happy ****ing some guy for over a year whislt i have been going through hell.

 

You probably should have done this a long time ago or at least put them in a place that you can't easily get to them...but you know that.

 

However, I know exactly how you feel. I threw away everything of my Xs and to be honest, it did not help me yet...

 

I am stuck as you are, and it's been about 1.5 yrs for me. We probably will never forget the Xs. But if we you really love em, we should be glad that they are happy.

 

You should not get down on yourself for posting here again...hell, that's what LS is all about. I have held crap in for a long time, and I am here to tell you "that crap is just not healthy for you". Let it out...go for a drive or run and scream, cry, or whatever. Nobody will think any less of you. Don't keep it bottled up.

 

For what it's worth, today is my X's Bday. I feel a bit crappy, but I suppose it is really just another day...

 

All you can do is take it day by day...good luck!

[Biker2007]

Playlislay...this is so damn true -

Love and hate, such close emotions.

[EmperorR]

Imagine being cheated on by your fiancé dumped, recovered get suckered into another relationship with a girl you knew for years then dumped again the exact same way throug text message. Feel like I'm dealing with double heArtbreak.

 

Trust for women? Nope