Saesan Posted April 1, 2009 Posted April 1, 2009 Tomorrow will be 6 months since I came home to an empty house, found my ex had cleared out and taken all our stuff and left me for someone else. And I have to post this here because its something that I feel like I can no longer share with my family, my friends, or even my counselor because I've done my best to make everyone think that I'm ok and fine. And I am ok and fine most of the time. I miss my ex a lot, don't get me wrong, we were together for a long time and had planned on starting a family this year. But in the past 6 months I have moved on to some degree, and have even found things about being single that make me happy - I can hang out with my friends for as long as I want and not worry that I have to get home in time to spend time with him, cook dinner, clean, etc., which is what seems like my whole life revolved around before. I can eat what I want, when I want; I can plan my life and my career out without having to bend to someone elses desires. Though to be fair I didn't realise this until about 3 weeks ago when I went on my first date. It was an ok date, but it made me realise that I'm not ready to date yet, and that I think I might actually be enjoying being single. And yet I still miss him, and not a day goes by where I don't think of him or long for the life I once had. So many memories crowd me, so many hopes and dreams gone. I'm still plagued by doubts over some of my decisions that brought me to this point, and often daydream about the things I could've done to change or prevent what happened. So I don't really know what the point of this post is, and I'm sorry if I've rambled a bit, but maybe it's just to acknowledge to myself and others that yeah ok, I still hurt and miss my best-friend/ex alot, but maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Somewhere in the distance anyway, but closer than what it was a few months ago.
gutted1 Posted April 1, 2009 Posted April 1, 2009 Tomorrow will be 6 months since I came home to an empty house, found my ex had cleared out and taken all our stuff and left me for someone else. And I have to post this here because its something that I feel like I can no longer share with my family, my friends, or even my counselor because I've done my best to make everyone think that I'm ok and fine. And I am ok and fine most of the time. I miss my ex a lot, don't get me wrong, we were together for a long time and had planned on starting a family this year. But in the past 6 months I have moved on to some degree, and have even found things about being single that make me happy - I can hang out with my friends for as long as I want and not worry that I have to get home in time to spend time with him, cook dinner, clean, etc., which is what seems like my whole life revolved around before. I can eat what I want, when I want; I can plan my life and my career out without having to bend to someone elses desires. Though to be fair I didn't realise this until about 3 weeks ago when I went on my first date. It was an ok date, but it made me realise that I'm not ready to date yet, and that I think I might actually be enjoying being single. And yet I still miss him, and not a day goes by where I don't think of him or long for the life I once had. So many memories crowd me, so many hopes and dreams gone. I'm still plagued by doubts over some of my decisions that brought me to this point, and often daydream about the things I could've done to change or prevent what happened. So I don't really know what the point of this post is, and I'm sorry if I've rambled a bit, but maybe it's just to acknowledge to myself and others that yeah ok, I still hurt and miss my best-friend/ex alot, but maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Somewhere in the distance anyway, but closer than what it was a few months ago. I'm in the same boat. I still think about my ex everyday, i know i should be over it i have also tried going with other girls but it just taught me that i wasn't ready, i am actually realy happy being single right now and am pleased to not have the pressure of a relationship. It doesn't stop me missing her though One of my friends rather thoughtlessly mentioned she'd seen my ex yesterday and it made me feel sick !!! as if i needed to hear that!! All we can do is try and accept and let go !! its all you can do !! I figure it just gets a tiny little bit better everyday !! One day we'll be free trust me. chin up
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