now_what Posted April 1, 2009 Posted April 1, 2009 I posted under the thread "It's almost over after 30 years". Well, now it is over. Court was easier than I thought and I can thank my ex for this. I inadvertently parked behind him (he had bought a different car recently). I didn't realize it was his car until I saw the bumper sticker that said "Screw it, let's ride". I immediately thought "Screw it, let's get divorced". I'm just so tired of all that "biker" bs, you'd think that's all there is to life and to him that's truly all there is. He's got the bike, the biker clothes, the poker runs, the bike weeks, the biker chick - what more could he want? He is still stuck in the biker fantasy and it felt so good to not be married to him anymore. He had totally forgotten how to be a husband over the past couple years and I was sick of it. When the judge said "dissolution granted" I may have let out an audible sigh of relief. I just didn't know how I would feel yesterday, but I felt good. I dabbed at my eyes for about two minutes after we walked out of the court room and I think it was more from relief than sadness. We chatted in the hallway about a sick pet for a couple of minutes waiting to get our copies of the decree, rode down in the elevator together, and walked out the front door with the attorney. I crossed the street and got in my car and drove off. I was nice and even gave him a wave and he waved back - I very easily could have flipped him off. And that was that. I drove to work and went about my normal business. This whole thing has been no big deal to him, so I refuse to let it upset me anymore. Unless reality hasn't sunk in yet, I do feel really good, very liberated. I've cried for 6 months, I don't want to waste my energy doing that any more. Thanks to everyone for their words of support - it has made things much easier for me through this trying time.
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