smile_through_tears Posted March 31, 2009 Posted March 31, 2009 Who wants to hear the same bs everyday right? Im depressed, life is stressful cause if its not one thing is the other...cause nothin is easy and nothing is cheap...bills & studies and hurt, heartbreak & betrayal...And at the end of the day who gives a damn about your pain and your problems? Nobody cause it aint happening to them. Who thought that someday I would need a forum online to express how I feel simply because the people who should be the ones to hear this s#!t just dont give a s#!t. You can be blessed with so much but at the same time loneliness sucks ass...Pain sucks...Accepting that the one that broke your heart doesnt give a damn about you anymore sucks...Having to pay money on top of money sucks...And spending time complaining online because you dont know where else to let your frustrations out sucks....And what do you get for staying positive, for trying so damn hard to better your life because you dont want to be "the one always complaining but who doesnt do anything about it"...And when you do something about it...you try and you try and keep falling flat on your face, but no you never give up because life has difficulties..But who understands what goes on inside you?? And "Why should I care? Im happy and content just because my luck is going right.." You can talk all you want, cry all you want and at the end of the day nothing has changed and all you got left is yourself..alone with confusion and trying to make it through the day...with a ****in smile on your face and a strong positive attitude....A life filled with friends, family, school and work.... yet with a broken heart and broken spirits.... Never did I want to let people hurt me, but it happened.. Can you force others to give a damn for hurting you? Nope... As I read on the Bible once... " A man who is in the warm cannot understand what one who is out in the cold is feeling." But no matter how hard life pushes me back, I will still get up and keep moving forwards..Its crazy how one person can cause so much damage to me...damn you...But I wont let this stand in my way...cause there are many worse things in the world...I just need some luck, help from above... I feel meloncholic...I hate missing you..I cant believe it ended this way...The man I would have married in a heartbeat...what happened to our kids names? our house?? damn...Im so mad I still love you and you still affect my emotions, crazy you're not even here. I thought I was over you but it has been 3 days that I feel this way now. Home alone on the internet trying to get advice....
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