second chance

[bake42]

I met a girl about 7 months ago and we hit it off immideatley she was just out of a 4 year relationship so i wa cautious to not get attached but a month went by and i we had both fallen hard in love and it was great we had a great relationship we laughed did things together and it was great. She got into school and thats what she wanted and we were both so proud and she told me everyday she couldnt wait to get out of school and we could get married and spend our life together. First semester went well it was hard but we made it through no problem.Second semester started off great toward the end of the secon semester it got hard and i didnt get to see her much and it really sucked but was letting her do her own thing because i wanted her to do good. well she started studying with a group of two classmates one which is a guy i was cautious about this at first and we talked about it and she assurred me of our love and i was the only one she wanted and that i had nothing to worry about so were all fine and just at the end of the second semester it gets to where she forgets to call me on her lunch break and a week goes by and i dont get to see her so i decided to mention it and she flipps out on me and saying im mad at her for trying to do good which is clearly not the case i just wanted to talk to her sometime instead of me not talking to her at all well while i told her that i couldnt go on feeling like she dont care all she would say is do what you want to do and i told her that i didnt want to break up i just wanted to know if she wanted to be with me and all she could say was do what you want to do and she never told me that she cared about our relationship and was really wanting to work so i ended it. Next day goes by and i feel like its all my fault so i meet her after work and tell her how i really feel and she tells me that she loves me and she has feelings but she just needed her space so i said ok i just want you to be happy. A week goes by without any contact she finally texted me telling me i needed to come over and get my stuff she had in her car i said thats fine when i get there she grabs me and hugs me like never before and it felt awesome when i left there i had a great feeling about the way she looked at me and that we both still cared for each other so i left came home and went and cooked out with some friends i come home go to sleep wake up the next day and saw where she had called and i was asleep and didnt answer i call her back the next day and she doesnt answer and immedeatley texts me saying why am i calling her so i said you called me i was just returning your call to see what was up and she went on to say that when i left that day she was tore up and is so hurt about me breaking up with her that she couldnt find a place in her heart for me just because i broke it off when i told her over and over i wanted to work it out and she was not willing and now she is saying its all my fauly and she can sit there saying she loves me but cant give me another chance right now so i told her all i wanted for her was to make her happy and thats all that mattered to and she said she wanted to be friends and still hang out every now and then and i told her i wanted her to get out and date around so she can see what else is out there so whenever she realizez who i was and how good i treated her she would come back to be me and be mine forever i am really lost and hurt looking for some kind of comfort