Aveenolover Posted March 30, 2009 Posted March 30, 2009 Well, my boyfriend and i broke up about a month ago. he said he loves me and everything but i wasnt "the one" which is so confusing because he used to think i was. we have literally everything in common from interests to morals. I feel like one of the things that lead to our break up was me always being on the computer and not really treating him like a boyfriend, i guess i took him for granted. He had broken up with me before for about the same reason, and i stopped playing (it was world of warcraft) and he was like no no its okay u can play and so we would play together and then it started getting out of hand again. but i took it off my computer and id ont play it anymore. its just tough, im trying to go back to my old self before wow took over my life but now that i dont have him i just feel empty and its hard to even want to do anything at all. we went 3 weeks of NC then he texted me and told me i had some stuff at his house and then i texted him and told him his ex best friend messaged me on facebook ( i knew it would rouse him, he has a lot of hate for the guy) so he called me to find out what he said and we ended up talking for a good 35 minutes. that following saturday i went to his house to get my things and he couldnt stop staring at me and said i looked better than ever. we hung out for a loong time. Cuddled, kissed, held each other........sex. We went out to eat and when we got back i told him i didnt want a FWB and he said he didnt either. i asked him what we were and he said "friends that love each other" but he said he doesnt want to just jump back into the relationship because hes scared im just going to go back to what i was. playing on wow 24/7. even though i took it off my comp and through away all my discs. i know this time i cant play casually but he still thinks im going to pick it up again. also he said he didnt really MISS me per say but he thought about me a lot. and he said he had a really really good time with me when i came over and i made him very happy. so after hanging out for about 6 hours i went home. that was saturday night/sunday morning. on monday he texted me and said for me to have a fun time at work, he would be on vacation for the next 2 weeks. and i said well if u get bored, call me! we can hang and he said, "i kinda wish u were here right now" yada yada. on wednesday he texted me to come over after work, and so i did and we watched a movie. i had a doctor appt in the morning so we just kinda cuddled and we talked until like 7 am. he told me that he went to a party the night before but the whole time he compared all the girls to me and they were nothing. he said that i am just so perfect compared to everyone and i really set his standards high. he said they were all so annoying and that ive never annoyed him. he was just being so loving and saying all kinds of stuff like that. just how great i was. but he was still too scared to jump back into a relationship yet because he doesnt want either of us to get hurt if i go back to my old ways. and so we went to sleep for a bit but i had that doc appt. didnt hear from him then on thursday night i texted to see if he wanted to hang out on friday morning, when i got off work and he said sure, he rented 2 movies. so i went over there and he made some food. we ate that and watched a movie. we laughed about it and just chatted. we went to go to sleep and i was just so confused and i talked to him and he said no i myself am not perfect, just compared to all the other girls i am (lolwut?) and i asked him if he was still feeling me out to see if i was making postive changes or if i should move on, and he said both (again, lolwut?) even though before he said if i started dating someone else he wouldnt be able to see me because it would hurt too badly. so yea.. we woke up the next day and we were cuddling then he started getting a bit aggressive and we started making out....lasted for like 40 mins lol then we had sex... after that we relaxed then went and got some food, came back, ate it then watched a movie. and just chilled the rest of the night, cuddled a lot and he kept smiling at me very lovingly. I ended up going to sleep and he stayed up so he could try to fix his schedule. and i got up soon after he went to bed and i said goodbye to him and left. after that i hadnt heard from him at all... Then today i had to go to his house so i could pick up my glasses but when i called him he said i would just have to get my stuff and go because he was playing games with his brother and his friends. and so i asked him if he was mad or anything and he said no. so i got my stuff, came back home and texted him and said i was sorry for getting so confused, i just thought that after last weekend we would be hanging out a lot more and since i hadnt even heard from him i thought i upset him and he just said its ok. im just trying to chill out, ok? my brother thinks things might be good between us and we will eventually get back together but hes just trying to take everything slow. i just want to know what u guys think? also no i dont see myself really moving on, i knew he was special ever since i first met him and i feel like i really screwed up by getting so much into that game and taking him for granted. ive never felt the way i feel for him and i feel like being with anyone else will just be "settling". so i dunno, i guess i just want someone to help me relax and take this slowly and stop getting so worried all the time, and any guy translations would be helpful:) so i can at least understand this a little bit better. sorry i know this is like a novel.. lol
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