jmmm Posted March 29, 2009 Posted March 29, 2009 I am 24 and think I am doing ok so far. I definitely don't come from money. Wasn't given a car at 16 or for a graduation and still don't have one because I never really needed one. I live in an apartment with my parents. I have my own room which is pretty tiny..There are definitely worse situations than this I just feel very very stressed at times living here and almost trapped. I feel like I am stuck almost between the age of 16 and the future. I am still told to clean up my room which annoys me to no end becuase the room is tiny and and its hard to keep it organized all the time. Its just feels aggravating to be told that at almost 25. Also, my parents are good people but they don't get along alot of the times and it stresses me out to no end to hear. Its to the point where I enjoy silence ALOT. The apartment is small so obviously voices travel. I also feel like I still don't get privacy due to my mom. I feel like I can't talk on the phone at times or if she sees my door is closed and its locked, she will try to just come in and keep knocking until i have to put a guy or friend I am talking to on hold to say I am on the phone and then I have to think she is probably listening on the other end. I just want to scream at times and feel like i have nowhere to go...We have a PC that me and my dad uses but even with that I feel like I don't have privacy because it is in an area where my mom or my dad can walk back and forth and my mom is the one who gets nosy at times and wants to see what I am doing. Its like I am 16 or something. At almost 25, if i am going to do something wrong I am going to do it, she can't prevent anything at this point. I have spoke with her about this a few times but nothing is going to change, I know that. A solution for this I guess would be to get a lap top and use it in my room. These are just some of the ways I feel trapped and tense and very angry and sad at times. If I know I will get the place to myself for a few hours, I won't even want to go out but just rather enjoy it being alone and doing what I want without other people around. I also think it affects my attitude with my parents which I will probably feel guilty about years later. Rents are expensive and apart of me feels like its so much better to just to save up for a downpayment on a house....but by doing that, its going to take years and years and I can't live at home until that time comes or until I happen to get married and who knows when that will be. I would prefer to live alone but it seems hard to do these days...So maybe it is better to just rent or look for a roomate, I don't even know. It has also affected my opinion on going back for a graduate degree. I donot want to place myself in debt again for school to the point I will not be able to move out because I will not be able to afford student loans and rent and other expenses as well. It made more sense to me to pay off my loans while I don't have those other expenses. I just crave the moment of coming into a quiet apartment and not having to explain anything or explain where i am going at 25 and who i am going with..just kind of having a little more independence. Really hate this feeling and don't know what to do.
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