drummerprince81 Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 Tonight is my exs birthday party and I'm so sad that I'm not there. I know she will be out, having a ball, all glammed up. Its freezing, but its a beautiful night and this has made me feel even worse for some reason. I wish it was pouring down. It came out of nowhere but for the last hour it feels like I've been kicked in the stomach by a horse. All I can think about is her getting drunk, having an amazing time without me, not even thinking about me, pulling some guy (guys always go after the birthday girl), walking to a cab, he lends her his coat, you know the rest. I hate my mind at the moment. All my friends are busy tonight with their partners. It absolutely sucks. How can I stop thinking about it?
monkeymaid Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 go to the gym or run or read a book clean out your fridge, clean your whole house, rebuild the engine in your car, play with yourself, watch a movie, find a dance class tonight and go, brush your teeth really well 51 times, call an old friend, calll 7 old friends, make a new friend, reorganize your cupboards, draw, write your thoughts out, take too much laxative, start a website, go buy a model plane and build it, hike, snowboard, surf, camp, start inventing a more renewable source of energy, figure out how davinci learned to draw with his left hand while he wrote with his right, teach yourself chemistry, physics or calculus. ...u see, there is a lot to do so get to work. ...my suggestion is to go for a run, then hit the weights, or vice versa.
Author drummerprince81 Posted March 28, 2009 Author Posted March 28, 2009 Thanks mate...well seems like the world is my oyster. Except its night time now, dark, freezing so I'll skip the running. I'll find something else to do. I guess this is the last thing I'll ever know she is doing, because we organised it when we were still together just over a month ago. I feel like I've been conned but if she is out there partying completly over me, feeling no remorse then is she worth thinking about it? Probably not - except I can't help it. And also...I've tried to do things but I think about her and what she is doing and why ain't she missing me even when I'm doing things. Like I said, I hate my mind.
TheJoker Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 go to the gym or run or read a book clean out your fridge, clean your whole house, rebuild the engine in your car, play with yourself, watch a movie, find a dance class tonight and go, brush your teeth really well 51 times, call an old friend, calll 7 old friends, make a new friend, reorganize your cupboards, draw, write your thoughts out, take too much laxative, start a website, go buy a model plane and build it, hike, snowboard, surf, camp, start inventing a more renewable source of energy, figure out how davinci learned to draw with his left hand while he wrote with his right, teach yourself chemistry, physics or calculus. ...u see, there is a lot to do so get to work. ...my suggestion is to go for a run, then hit the weights, or vice versa. haha yeah this is very true you really need to just keep yourself busy!
Tasha Hedges Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 Make sure you go NC with her for a good amount of time, you never know she might come back if your ignore her and show her that you arent tamed or still broken over your break up
kizik Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 you never know she might come back if your ignore her and show her that you arent tamed or still broken over your break up No offense, but this is bad advice from a probable spammer - you can see the "Get your ex back" link in her signature. She's not coming back. You probably know that already, and I apologize if my saying so rubs salt in the wound. Drummer, I feel you. My ex's b-day was yesterday, and I knew she was: spending time with family, having fun, and probably sucking her boyfriend's dick. The only thing that makes me feel better is that I know I was an exceptional 'lover' and most guys don't have the desire and/or stamina to please a girl in the way I got my ex off. Anyway, that's pretty tangential. Think about this: even if she IS having fun, etc., there are 5.9999999 billion people in the world who don't know your ex, don't care about her. YOU can and will be one of those people. What I'm saying is that she doesn't matter to anyone except for a handful of people. Take care not to make her into someone 'amazing' - she's just another girl. Best, Josh
Author drummerprince81 Posted March 28, 2009 Author Posted March 28, 2009 Spam or not, I am still holding on to hope. But the best way is to forget her, leave her be and cross that bridge if she ever contacts. But I'm the same as you - I believe I was a great lover!!! Some other girl will be lucky one day although at the moment I see no light at the end of tunnel. Such a cruel twist of the knife...nice guys finish last I guess. I did see your post Kizik - must have been hard for you like it is for me. The paranoia is scary. Did you feel that there is nothing you could possibly do that day to keep it all out of your mind? Thats how I feel. All day its being going really but it got really bad just before I posted this thread. She was amazing to me...thats the thing. But I was amazing to her so in a way its an even score!!! Except I feel like I've been sent for an early shower and the shower room is in hell. Gotta snap out of this soon.
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