Els Posted March 26, 2009 Posted March 26, 2009 Okay, I know I'm horrible at dealing with moods. I just notice that I always seem to go this way whenever there's 24 hours or more with barely any contact. I had a very long and horrible day today at internship. I got through it pretty much by looking forward to talking to him at the end of it. Unfortunately, he had had an even worse day. Something worrisome had happened that made him very depressed. He's the kind of person who retreats into caves when he's depressed, and doesn't want to talk to anyone about it. I've called him on it several times, but this case was so bad that I definitely don't blame him. Also, it shows remarkable progress that he even told me what happened. There was stilted conversation for 5 minutes with me not really knowing what to say. The only way I could think of to comfort him would be to hold him -- unfortunately I don't have that option. Then he went to bed early. Like I said before, I certainly don't blame him, but I still felt miserable. I miss him immensely. I tried distracting myself with games, food, and work, but it doesn't work. When I went out into the night, it was cool and breezy, reminded me of the times we used to go out at night. I've been reading past msn conversations because that's all I have now. I just don't feel like doing ANYthing much, talking to ANYone. Tomorrow I'll have another long horrible day. I'll have to leave just when he gets back from class. When I get back again he'll probably be asleep. He usually stays up a bit late to play games or talk to me but with this problem looming over his head I doubt that'll be happening. I usually stay up late to catch him before he gets back from class but with my current schedule these few weeks that's not possible. Why is it that my functionality seems to depend quite a bit on whether or not we have a good conversation on that particular day!? It's worse when I'm having a hard day and looking forward to that gem at the end of it, of course, but honestly this wasn't the only time.
Bearandsue Posted March 26, 2009 Posted March 26, 2009 I don't know if its normal or not, frankly i dont know what normal is. I used to get really depressed when I didnt get to talk to my guy for a day. But over time It became easier. I think most men go into "caves" when they have problems. They like to sort it out by themselves. It has nothing to do with you or not trusting you. Just the way they are. They will come out eventually. Even though it seems like you had a bad day, it appears he is having a worst one. Since you cant talk to him why not send him an email or an e card. Might not be much. Just to show you care.
Island Girl Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 OMG I can totally relate. When we have had periods of not really being able to reach each other either because of life or phone lines or moods, etc. I have a REALLY hard time. Work gets difficult. Life gets difficult. Just doing day to day things is way too hard. I don't even want to be awake because then I have to be aware. Times like these are bad. They are. But it will pass. That isn't comforting I know. Because I know how I feel when this happens and nothing is comforting except him. Nothing makes it better except him. But you will talk with him soon. And then it will be better. I used to think no one else in the whole world understood but now I know at least one person does. You do. My heart goes out to you Elswyth.
EllieBean Posted March 28, 2009 Posted March 28, 2009 How come you can only speak to him at the end of the day? Can't he call you on his mobile phone, or vice versa, for a quick chat to cheer you up?
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