Long distance is really taking it's toll today..

[mylovegrowsdeeper]

Today is just one of those days. It isn't like everyday and it isn't even frequent aside from the fact that it does happen every month, coincidentally always around the time I am at my most hormonal, emotional, and irrational aka pms.

 

I just want to be held and kissed and flirted with. My bf does the best he can blowing me kisses over the phone, telling me how much he loves me etc. But on days like this, that just isn't enough and for what it's worth I accept that's my "fault" and not his. It isn't for his lack of effort I feel this way, I know that. I wish even I didn't feel this way. We don't have much further to go before we're finally back together and both in the same country but some days it all gets to be overwhelming. We've hit the stage of..hmm..I don't want to say comfort..because it isn't boring..and the sparks are there..but the once very intense sparks that start in the begining but inevitably remain but mellow out some..you know so a person can go through their day without being driven TOO mad by their extreme feelings... we're there. I'm okay with that in my relationships, it's normal and replaced by something with more substance and a deeper love. It's just hard having those more deep feelings and being away from your partner.

 

 

I just needed someone to vent to because I feel so incredibly lonely today. Maybe I should tell him this: not in the way of "I feel bad, I need this" but just in the way of "you know..I'm having a hard day today with us being long distance" and just talk about my feelings of it. I suppose he probably goes through the same thing as me. Maybe our best ally could be in eachother.

 

Hmm I think I'm going to go try that.

[rlindzie]

hey there, im sorry your going through this! I know how you feel a bit bc my new bf is in Korea for the next 8 months. for me i get so frustrated bc i wanna be there u know in the flesh with him. I cant give you advice except just keep talking to him when you get really lonely or go out with friends for a drink take care and your not alone in this one

[Bearandsue]

Aww sorry to hear you are feeling so down. I get the same way at that time of the month, I get cranky and depressed. Like a raging hormonal psychotic person....that pms for you.

 

Just know it will pass in a couple of days. Talk to your guy about how you are feeling. He might not be able to be there physically but just knowing he cares might make you feel a bit better. Hope you feel better soon.

[LonelyTiger]

Oh, I do feel for you. I'm exactly the same - every month, actually twice a month - I get emotional when I'm ovulating too!

 

It is sooo hard to be away from the one you love when all you want is a hug from them. Just hearing my husband tell me he loves me helps a lot, but at these sort of times the lack of physical contact is really tough.

 

Hope you're feeling better soon.

[mylovegrowsdeeper]

Thanks everyone for the support.

 

Yeah, I talked to him about it and felt so much better afterwards . We just kind of shared and related how we feel and deal with what we're going through, and he reminded me it's just another 3 months until we're together and don't have to be living apart anymore . We also decided to shoot pics of the current surroundings/weather on eachothers end and shared them. It was fun and made me not feel the distance so much. I got up and out of the house after that and I'm feeling pretty good now. I love that man.