georgiabell03 Posted March 25, 2009 Posted March 25, 2009 Below are emails between my man and his high school crush, Sorry but I to delete some personal stuff but no worries as it doesnt affect the overall email. Please read and tell me how to I tell him that some of the things he is saying is uncalled for since if I were to do the same I would be single the moment he caught wind. Yes I know snooping is bad, I simply cannot help myself (By the way, my notes are in bold) (HIM) I had the sleep study because I have had a problem with oversleeping, always being tired and I have bad nightmares. I put up the pic.. 9am and nothing accomplished huh, that's pretty awesome. Is there work to do if you wanted or is it a slow day? How was your weekend, what'd ya do? (HER) Whew can I just say how good it feels to type on a real computer, I love it! Anyway, do doctors think that this will tell what the problem is? Nightmares? Is it all the time? My ex was the same way, he was a strange sleeper, but said he always had nightmares.. Oh I have tons of work to do.. I just don't want to do anything! I did do some work after I emailed you though Nothing big, Friday stayed in.. Watched dexter(awesome show) Saturday went shopping got a manicure, then Saturday night went out with some friends... Sunday cleaned, and saw the family.. What about you? (HIM) I'm sorry about the face book thing, I forgot you asked me to keep in touch via your work email between 8am-5pm. I hope they will be able to figure it out, its possible I could have to go back for another one to go more in depth. Yes, I have nightmares of the war, which is odd because I never made it over there. Recently I have been thinking it is because of guilt that I got out the day before I was to be sent to Iraq. Just a theory I guess. All my nightmares involve someone trying to kill me, as my biggest fear in life is death. Wow you are the first person I have ever told this to. I cant help but get upset that he told her that she is the only person he has told that too but he actually told me awhile back.... My weekend was hectic, Saturday I worked from 6am to 2pm, then went out for an all night fun fest with my girl, ate at Outback, mmmm filet mignon...madd good, anyways..lol. Sunday worked from 6am-2pm then made one last trip out to my old place to grab the rest of my furniture. (HER) Oh that is ok, I don't mind writing from my phone... It is just hard cause I have to go on all the time... You know... Wow that is really scary, why did you get out the day before you were supposed to leave? It seems like a good theory, you are probably right...it could be the guilt or maybe just the fear of what could have happened. Well thanks for trusting me...the thing that scares me the most about death is the unknown... The fact that I don't have any control over the way I die, and I have no clue how or when it will happen.. I mean no one really does... But for some reason this consumes me when I think about it. So how are things with you and your girlfriend? Are they better? How is the move? (HIM) I was scheduled to get out, but the Department of the Army apparently didn't get the memo, and I came down on orders the day after I left. A friend called me and asked me to guess who was shipping out in 30 days, I said who, he said me...I lol'd since I was back in Boston already. It still messes me up a lot, I don't personally know anyone who died over there but I have many friend who have gone 2-3 times. I almost want to go now to get over the guilt of not deploying. But I'd have to give up about 400 grand to go, and that's not gonna happen. Yeah my problem is mostly at night before bed, laying there in a dark room. Then hold your breath and think, is this it? Eternity in a box in the ground. I usually can't sleep if that enters my mind. I don't know why I opened up to you, feels weird, but it just kept flowing out. Sorry if I was out of line, I mean dang we haven't seen each other in 10 years and I had a crush on you for as long as I can remember. Between you, ***, **** and ***** .....ahhh high school. Too bad no one noticed me...lol IS HE LOOKING FOR HER APPROVAL OF HIM NOW? Things with gf are, well tolerable. We have had good days and bad days....but there are still way too many bad days. The move is almost done, have to be out in 5 days. I WILL ADMIT OUR RELATIONSHIP IS VERY ROCKY, MOST ISSUES STEP FROM TRUST AND SEXUAL NEEDS. BUT IS IT OK FOR HIM TO CONFIDE IN THIS WOMAN AND NOT ME? ALSO HE TOLD ME BEFORE THAT HE DOESNT TALK ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO OTHERS. I KNOW THAT HE DID NOT REVEAL A WHOLE LOT AND INFACT IM REVEALING MORE HERE BUT THIS IS NOT THE END OF THE EMAILS IM SURE. DO I WAIT TO SEE IF HE CROSSES A LINE? OR DO I SAY SOMETHING TO HIM NOW?
Rose81 Posted March 26, 2009 Posted March 26, 2009 It sounds like this guy is going through a lot. You are understandably angry.....but maybe you should just move on. If you tell him he is going to be angry and look down on you and then tell that chick that you read the emails. I think you should just keep it to yourself and leave him. He sounds to me like he is looking for someone else. Sorry if this is too blunt. I'm sure you are really hurt.
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