wayfaerer1 Posted March 24, 2009 Posted March 24, 2009 Haven't been here in a while so I thought I'd check in... Well, its been about 6 1/2 months since my ex cheated on me and then dumped me. Since then, I did what one of my best friends told me to do - focus on you and get your life on the right track. Well since the break up, I moved out on my own, got a good job (was working as a temp previously), and I lost 20lbs and gained some muscle mass. So, on that front, things are great, never been better. However, I still think about her guys...Everyday. Since the breakup, we talked here and there (always texting or AIM, never phone or in person). The last time we talked was back in mid-January when we exchanged some text messages, where she told me how she feels terrible for how aweful she treated me and that she misses me, how she thinks about me everyday, and always checks to see if I would sign on AIM, then basically tried flirting with me, trying to make jokes about old times. Then I didn't hear from her for a while. Well this past Friday was my birthday, I was at work and I just happened to look at my phone (checking the time) when I noticed someone was calling (was on silent). I looked at the name and saw it was my ex...My heart sank and I immediately felt like ****. I know she was calling to wish me a happy birthday. I just let it ring until it said I had a voicemail. I'm sure she left a message wishing me a happy birthday and whatever else she may have said, but I couldn't listen to it... Just the very thought of hearing her voice (I haven't heard her voice, or seen her since the break up, only communicated through texting or AIM), anyway, just the thought of hearing her voice got me so worked up, that after I got home from work, I broke down and cried. So, I made the decision to just delete her voicemail without even listening to it... I feel good for being strong and ignoring her, but I still feel sad because I have nice guy syndrome and it's hard for me to ignore people, despite what she did to me. I think my problem is that I was so used to having somebody around all the time, and now that I'm on my own for the first time in 4 years - it's like torture to be alone - because I think of either two things: her, or my dream girl that I still can't seem to find, wherever she may be out there. I just genuinely miss my ex gf, and all I can hope for is that someday I think about her less and less. Anyway, I hope everyone else is doing alright - I know I've gotten a lot better, and to anyone else who is coping, take it from me - go to the gym as much as possible - it's seriously the greatest way to cope with a broken heart and reconnect with yourself.
kizik Posted March 24, 2009 Posted March 24, 2009 I know she was calling to wish me a happy birthday. I just let it ring until it said I had a voicemail. I'm sure she left a message wishing me a happy birthday and whatever else she may have said, but I couldn't listen to it... Just the very thought of hearing her voice (I haven't heard her voice, or seen her since the break up, only communicated through texting or AIM), anyway, just the thought of hearing her voice got me so worked up, that after I got home from work, I broke down and cried. So, I made the decision to just delete her voicemail without even listening to it... I think you did the right, and ultimately very difficult thing by deleting her message w/o even listening. I do not think I would have had the resolve to do that. Count yourself lucky that she thought of you enough to call you on your birthday. I never got a Happy or Merry anything. Good work, and stay strong. Cry if you have to; you're only human.
foxh1234 Posted March 24, 2009 Posted March 24, 2009 It's tough man, you did the best thing I think. Hang tough and keep on getting better. Life has to move on and you sound like your doing well.
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