chimpy Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 This past fall I met a girl through a friend. I told my friend I wanted to take this girl out on a date; this girl and I ended up "hanging out" twice. Not sure if she knows I wanted to take her on a date or not, I don't think I will ever know. My friend just set us up, but I am not sure how this girl interpreted it. Friends, or date? Nonetheless, she is absolutely 100% perfect. Her morals, interests, personality, and looks are flawless. She'd gladly help little old ladies cross the street and then go home to care for a sick family member, and then go on to make you laugh harder than ever before. Perfect, and she is modest too, so she is definately not a party animal that is risky to date, and she enjoys sweet and loving things. You could give her a flower and handwritten poem for her, and she'd melt; whereas other girls may think you are a creep or "old fashioned." The reason we only hung out (or went on a date if you ask me) twice, is because she moved to San Francisco almost immediately after that to attend college. I was disappointed that we didn't get far at the time, but in hindsight I am glad it didn't go farther than friends since it would have failed once she moved. She has no plans to live there permanently, just there to attend school. She lives with her friends and is having a blast. Good for her, I am genuinely glad and happy for her to see her having so much fun. I last saw her almost a year ago, and I have gone out on other dates but no girl has captured my heart as much as her. I write her poems every now and then through email and she says she likes them. I only hope that she falls for me when she comes home, as I know I will be waiting there for her. I still don't know if she knows I am romantically attracted to her, my friend that introduced me to her has since forgotten how I was introduced, so I can't ask my friend for much help. I know it is a gamble to wait for someone I don't even know will be attracted to me the same way, but my heart refuses to budge even though my mind is trying to move on to a different girl. I guess I am setting myself up for failure, but I keep hoping that I will get lucky and she will come home searching for me as I will be for her. One thing is for sure is that we are friends, not the closest of friends, but nonetheless friends. So that's a start I guess. She comes home during summer break, so I am thinking I will take her out for dinner and a movie then. Since she will have to return to S.F. after summer, I don't want to call that a "date" since it is useless. But I want to scope her out, get a feel for if she would want to date when she graduates. And be a gentleman, since she loves that. This sounds like a movie, and I am fascinated by the whole thing. But it is my real life story. I sit here, another night passing by, thinking about her. I wonder if she thinks about me. I don't care, I just hope that I can marry her one day. I have trust that God will show me what's right for a life partner, be it her or someone else, but I have never *ever* felt like this before. I've had crushes, and infatuation, and had fun spending time with girls. But this girl I actually care about. I look at her photos of her having fun in S.F. and it puts a smile on my face. I hear about her having a cold or having to deal with some crisis of some sort and I wish I could be right there to help her out. This is almost a year after I last saw her, and the feeling still lingers unsatisfied. I so badly wish I could speed this up, will she graduate already? All for this gamble, in the hope that she will love me back. I dread the thought of her rejecting me, but equally I hope for the thought that she embraces me as much as I do her. So the clock ticks and the years continue...
Island Girl Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 Do not - absolutely do not -- put your life on hold and wait for someone to possibly be interested and date you.
Author chimpy Posted March 22, 2009 Author Posted March 22, 2009 Thanks for the advice, Island Girl. I understand how problematic that can be, but I have not put my life on hold for anyone. This girl is more of a very big hope rather than a lifestopper. I am still going out on dates with other girls and seeing what's out there.
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