How upset should I be at myself

[trying123]

So... I got back together with my ex five months ago and it has been terrible. After five months I still have not met her roommate. We are not in a relationship on facebook. I know its stupid but it is important to me. We went out wednesday night for dinner and I tell her that I basically do not feel like I am in a reltionship. Our parents do not know about each other, I have asked to spend more nights at her house, we fool around twice a month, and I have never met her friends. She basically tells me she is never gonna make me happy.

 

So the part I messed up on. We got in a terrible fight in which she repeatedly hung the phone up on me and she said I drove her crazy, she called me later and she said she still love me and such.

 

I basically get pitch black drunk and made out with another girl, got freaked out and left the bar, and I told it to her about it the next day

 

I know she felt like we were in a reltionship but I did not, I feel bad I cheated but I just made out, it was a mistake and I told her the next day

 

Should I try and has things out, Am I a monster, its scary but I just don't seem to feel that bad, I have never cheated before on a girl

 

please help I am so messed up about this, I will respond to anybodies threads that helps, thanks

[samsungxoxo]

I think breaking up would be the best suggestion since obvious that you guys had trouble before. If there are terrible arguments going on a relationship then it's best if the two people go their separate ways.

[trying123]

thank you so much for the reply, I wrote on your current thread, I guess what I really need to know was am I a monster, did I ruin anything, I kept trying to tell her that I did not think we were in a relationship, I know it was my fault but was I really that bad, I tried so hard to make it work after we got back together I just messed up

[samsungxoxo]

Just go single for the meantime. Relationships are too much to work at and it can sure take some of your time. Because see when you're single then you don't have to worry about feeling no one.

[lostsunsets]

You're not in a relationship. She has not given any of herself or who she is to you. What you did was wrong. But you did stop. Dump her. She is a commitmentphobe.