bravesgirl Posted March 21, 2009 Posted March 21, 2009 :oTimes like these are always the hardest. The thoughts of you are unable to escape my mind. Its hard to sleep and hard to think. You were the reckless experience that was only supposed to happen once. Now it feels like I have known you for forever without knowing anything about you. My adventurous side tells me to believe what you tell me. My senses tell me to trust you. My mind tells me to run away as fast as I can. My jealousy tells me something is amiss. Is it really you that I care for? Or is it the thought of you? You are a wild and crazy part of my life that displays and defines the youth and carelessness of my age. Am I holding on to you just because I know that I can't have you? Would I still want you if I could have you? Would you still want me? Are you just happy to have someone my age to spend time with? Is it just a game for both of us? You say you love me but you only had the courage to bring it up the first time when you were drunk. Its hard for me to not call you when I am drunk to finally get everything off of my mind. Then when you finally told me you "luv me" and sent it in a text message. There is something that you are hiding...I can feel it in my heart. There is a reason you always have to "call me back in five minutes" and then you can text me right after we hang up:mad:. It could be your roomate just as you say it is, I know that you have to travel with the same guys for work. But, there is a reason you left me early that one night. You said that you couldn't be seen leaving my room. Is it because of your job? Or is it because there is someone else who you don't want to find out? If I find out there is someone else we have been hurting, I don't know if I could take the guilt. When you said you loved me what kind of love do you mean? Now I wish the word had never existed. I love my dog, my car, and my grandma...Is that the same kind of love you have for me. I guess you could love me as an f buddy. I'm okay with a casual relationship, but I wont let you lead me on. Tell me what you want and tell me now. Don't say things just to keep me around. I will stick around for a while unless you play with my emotions. If you want to keep it simple and casual let us keep it that way. If you want something more let me know. I may not be ready but if you really do :love:"love":love: me you can wait till I am ready also, it may not be too far away! And to answer your question:love:...I care for you in a loving way! But I also know that I deserve someone who treats me better than how you have treated me all those times.
Author bravesgirl Posted March 21, 2009 Author Posted March 21, 2009 :confused:And the stage we are in, in our "relationship" does not allow you to get upset when I don't answer your calls or texts right away! I rarely initiate texting and when I do, you don't text back. That night you said you :love:"love me":love: you told me to call you tomorrow. I knew you wouldn't answer so I told you thats why I wouldn't call. You said you would, but guess what! I was right, but still so so wrong in my situation. :bunny:So get your s*** straight. I'm not gonna hold my breath:sick: or call when you ask me to! I'm also not gonna call you when you text, "call me!" If you want to talk to me, man up and call me! Get over yourself:p and maybe we will get along. Don't expect me to expect much from you. Or maybe I should expect more from you. I'm gonna have an opened mind while stepping lightly with caution! I'm also not going to worry, because what is supposed to happen, will happen!!!
Touche Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 Dear bravesgirl, Pretty Boy here. When I say jump, you'll say "how high" or you're history. That's how it works with pretty boys like me. If you want a man who doesn't play games, call someone else, k? Luv, Pretty Boy
burning 4 revenge Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 Dear bravesgirl, Pretty Boy here. When I say jump, you'll say "how high" or you're history. That's how it works with pretty boys like me. If you want a man who doesn't play games, call someone else, k? Luv, Pretty Boy Im not pretty.....
Touche Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 Im not pretty..... I know, you're a bawld Cuban? So?
burning 4 revenge Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 I know, you're a bawld Cuban? So?youre mean im only halfway bald and you know it
Island Girl Posted March 22, 2009 Posted March 22, 2009 And the stage we are in, in our "relationship" does not allow you to get upset when I don't answer your calls or texts right away! So you don't answer right away on purpose -- like some kind of game...? Honey, I am so sorry -- but if you are trying to play you are kinda doing it all wrong. I rarely initiate texting and when I do, you don't text back. You are showing you are way over invested. Way too eager. And you prove my point further in the next few sentences: That night you said you "love me" you told me to call you tomorrow. I knew you wouldn't answer so I told you thats why I wouldn't call. You said you would, but guess what! I was right, but still so so wrong in my situation. You TOLD him you won't answer so I'm not going to call? That speaks whipped like a chocolate mousse! I would advise you to just stop trying to be coy. Stop buying into his lines, etc. Do what you say you are going to do in this post. If he wants to talk to you -- if you matter -- HE WILL CALL YOU. If he doesn't get a response and cares in the slightest about what has happened to you or what is wrong HE WILL CALL. And if he does, you need to be yourself -- not cutesy or coy - or what you think he wants to hear or what will drive the relationship to where you want. Just be yourself. He has to make the effort and don't be a booty call - it doesn't fit you (especially with this guy because clearly you have feelings here). And be prepared that if he doesn't make an effort, a REAL effort, that you must move on and forget about him. You simply MUST. That means no texts, no calls, NC. Good luck to you.
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