DudeMan27 Posted March 19, 2009 Posted March 19, 2009 Maybe its a stage of breaking up, but today I started obsessing over all the times she cried, and all the times I would leave her house in the morning early, just because I had errands to run, when she should have been top priority. Dont get me wrong, I wasnt mean to her or abusive, we just had some rocky moments in our relationship where I feel like I didnt fully give. There was a vacation last summer where I got upset over something and made her cry. We made up but now all i think about is how I ruined that vacation. One weekend I had previous plans and declined in invitation to one of her familys parties and it really upset her. Just stuff like that, now I cant stop thinking of what a monster I was for making her cry. I try and think of all the good things I did, the times when I went out of my way to show her I wanted to see her. Or the nights she was out of town I'd leave candy or hearts on her pillow. Her friends and roomates all told me how romantic I was. In the car one time her roomate said how her boyfriend never compliments her, and my ex said I was really good at stuff like that. I was proud of myself, but now I can only focus on when she cried. At the time I just told myself she was emotional. Now I tell myself Im a terrible person. I can only focus on the times I could not make it to dinner with her (we live an hour apart), instead of the night she was very very sick, and I stayed up giving her an hour long massage until she could fall asleep. My point is, is this a normal thing? When we first started having problems she would cry and say she was confused because I was such a wonderful boyfriend. But all I can tell myself is all she is focussing on now are the things I didnt, or couldnt do. Not the stuff that made her call me 'wonderful'
huck Posted March 19, 2009 Posted March 19, 2009 Yep - im doing it too. Looking back and regretting all the times i was an arse or got angry over something so trivial.. Also wishing you could turn back time and do things different.. But - the times we did fall out with our exes was probably just our personality and theres not much you can do to change that...
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