SadShamrock Posted March 18, 2009 Posted March 18, 2009 My ex and I broke up a year and a half ago. For the last 7 months, he and I have become very close. We were talking about 3-4 times a day, which he always initiated. It felt good to have him in my life. He is a horrible person, but I was happy to have him back. I say he is a horrible person, because he has always been unkind to me in the past. He either treated me poorly or said mean things. If I stood up for myself or told him that he hurt me- he'd state- you're on the rag and/or you are just always acting like a crazy b-tch. He's 35. He's not 15. So, we hadn't reconciled our relationship. We are living in different states, but as I said we were constantly on the phone. My birthday was 3 days ago. He called me. He didn't wish me happy birthday. Instead he started making fun of me, and it hurt my feelings. When I told him to stop, he just laughed and said he knew that it was upsetting me so he thought it was funny. Then we spoke briefly on Monday. He stated that he was cleaning and found one of my old t-shirts and asked me what I wanted him to do with it- I stated it was old, he could just throw it out and put it in Good Will. He replied- I can use it to clean up myself after I have sex. That really hurt. Then to top it all off, we were talking about losing weight, and I said I just need to get motivated, and he said- just tell yourself that you don't want to be a fatso anymore to get motivated. So, to say the least I was really hurt and shocked, and I asked him what the hell was going on? How he could be so cruel...and he stated he was just messing around. So I couldn't sleep last night. So I called him around 1 AM, and he finally admitted that he met someone two days ago when all the snide comments started. Up until this point, he is the one that has been calling me, initiating all the time. I am just so hurt again. This time he has made me feel so ugly, fat and worthless. The thing is he never had to call me. It was when I was over him that he started calling me again. I'm just embarrassed cause I feel used and ugly. I feel like he's right, cause I'm the loser who let him come back again, and maybe it is because I'm fat, stupid, and ugly and no one else wants me. I think I feel worse about myself this time then I do about never speaking to him again. I hate myself right now, because I feel like I can't even get this total loser to care for me.
Frankasy Posted March 18, 2009 Posted March 18, 2009 First of all one things leaves me very confused here. You mention the term break up but in the first line of your post stated that he's your ex and you're in speaking terms. Did you forget to mention that you two got back together or you never did? If you two only remained exs in speaking terms than why are you saying that it's not a break up but it feels like one when you two were never in a relationship(During the past 7 months)? Yeah at least you know that you're a loser. He only hurts your feelings, cheats on you(Presuming that you two were in a relationship) and you keep going back to him as if he's a drug and you're an addict. Seriously what more do you expect from him until you realize that enough is enough?
Hersheys Posted March 18, 2009 Posted March 18, 2009 Yeah at least you know that you're a loser. He only hurts your feelings, cheats on you(Presuming that you two were in a relationship) and you keep going back to him as if he's a drug and you're an addict. Seriously what more do you expect from him until you realize that enough is enough? I agree. You know so well what he does to you yet you still come back for more. You're addicted to the attention he gives you never mind if it hurts, degrades and humiliates you. I guess it's not too late. You can stop talking to him, go NC but the question is can you handle it? Imo, you really have to. Your ex is a jerk! He knows he's being a jerk. He knows he's acting that way because he's with someone else and wants to get rid of you.
Petri Posted March 18, 2009 Posted March 18, 2009 The problem is, you have true feelings on him but he has only obsession to hurt your feelings. It seems that he's not serious about you at all.
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