Jay34 Posted March 17, 2009 Posted March 17, 2009 my ex messaged me and i decided to answer, i have been getting over her and thought well maybe, of course i made a huge mistake......, 2 hours taalking later i realized why no contact is great, though it was an eye opener, she wanted to see how i was doing yet we talked about her for hours, she got me worried about her, she is drinking all the time now, was forced into sex supposedly, and basically left the conversation saying screw my life then came back, she was hyperventilating, it was the first time it went through my head that she really is this crazy, she quickly asked me about the new girl i was dating and got inssanely jealous, then leaving again and coming back, but for some reason i wasn't upset, i was just thinking, im lucky to be far away. i never really knew who she was.... i was just wondering i ignore her never talk to her for months and she still wont stop, and when we do talk its about how horrible her life is without me.... how she will always love me, all that crap, its frustrating and she makes me feel bad because im still going to be worried about how she is. but its a weird feeling, i care but i don't want her anymore, i think about how it was, but just as memories, i go back and forth sometimes, but she really is ruining the good memories. i just wish i didn't care, and after drinking a few beers it let my guard down and listened to her, its all about her. i know i am a total fool but i still want to see her again someday, is there anything i can do to suggest her to get help and then just get her to leave me alone, i tried being nice to her because she apparently is going through times, so i figured i'd be nice, but she got so jealous after she found out i dated someone, which tells me i cant be her friend, because although i was upset she did it to me, i figured she would before, i just want for her to get help, because deep down she is not an awful person, she is just very unstable, even if i don't want to date her again and sometimes i hate her, i don't want bad to happen to her, i only want the best for her. she can date others i just don't want to know about it. thats why i tell her nothing about my personal life. in the few times we have talked in the 4 months, i just don't think i really love her anymore, it was painful not to talk to her but now its more painful to talk o her, anyone have any advice, i would really like her to be happy without me.. even though for some dumb reason i love her.
era Posted March 19, 2009 Posted March 19, 2009 2 hours taalking later i realized why no contact is great You are right - sometimes you have to break NC to fully realize why NC is the best way to go. i just don't think i really love her anymore ....there's your answer/solution
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