baseballboy0 Posted March 16, 2009 Posted March 16, 2009 Right now, I am a sophomore in college and the girl involved in this story, Lauren, is a freshman in college. Last year, when I was a freshman and off at college, I got involved with a girl back home who was a senior in high school. Her name's Lauren and while we were friends for our high school careers, we didn't really know each other too well. Well, one day, I wrote on her Facebook wall saying I hoped her spring break was good. That's when we started talking a lot. She texted me that day and from them on, we texted each other and talked for a couple of weeks and we realized how much we had in common with each other. I admitted my feelings for her and they were returned back to me. However, I was at school and she was back at home, so we decided not to do anything about these feelings until we saw each other. Summer comes around and she's pretty uneasy about me because I smoked Marijuana and did drink a lot. She thought my party ways may have been too much for her to handle. She parties, but is more about staying in and "cuddling" or something. Well, she told me she got involved with her neighbor but still likes me. After that, we kind of went our separate ways but we talked a lot still. She eventually started dating this guy, but they broke up a couple months later when she went to school. I go to college out east and she goes to college out in the midwest and once again her and I were very flirty. I admitted plenty of times I still had feelings for her and she told me a few times she still had some feelings for me. Winter break comes around and when we are together in person, I tell her, "I still really like you." She said she feels the same but she just doesn't know because the majority of the time we are far away and she wants to make sure she can trust me. Fast forward to now. I still really like her and I tell her here and there. I have a feeling she still likes me. She calls me all of these lovey dovey names like babe, sweetie, cutie, etc, etc. However, she tells me, "I care you about you so much and you're one of the most important people in my life, but I rely on you so much as a friend." She obviously trusts me. She tells me some very personal things, but I'm afraid the distance at college and the things she tells me she doesn't want to ruin by jumping into a relationship and something bad happen and not have me at all. What am I supposed to do? Part of me wants to try forcing something to happen between us, but it seems selfish when I sit back and think about it. I've been classified as a "player" and she knows that. However, I've never liked a girl so much. I've never been the one to fall for girls, but I've liked her for a year and my feelings grow more and more, especially with the things she says to me. I don't see my feelings going away, so how can I cope with them or act upon them with her almost "denying" us to go further?
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