Im enraged cause i failed

[BIGO]

this is kind of a long story, but its worth reading.please read it all.before i start off im currently 17 years old and im a junior in high school. The story starts off last year. i was 16 in my sophomore year.its feb '08. in my history class, the teacher invites a girl from the speech and debate team to make a speech in front of the class.i dont know why, but theres something i like about the girl, even though i dont think shes hot or attractve at all. im in the front row and my face starts going red.a few months go by and the spring musical starts. shes in makeup crew and im in stage crew. i dont talk to her at all cause i didnt have the courage to. After the musical ended, i moved on and forgot about her. Summer vacation comes up, then my junior year started in september. im back at school and i begin noticing her in the hallways again so i start to remember her. one day at lunch i point her out to my friends and they all make fun of me. they all think shes ugly and say i got low standards. at the time i still didnt know what her name is. i couldnt stop looking at her and one of my frinds calls me creepy and a stalker, even though i wasnt tryin to be creepy at all and i got too much self respect to stalk people cause i got a life.i knew i was a little obseesed.over christmas break i see her at the grocery store. i dont say anything to her cause i dont know her so i couldnt really say anything.as i ride my bike home from the store i started to realize how beatiful she was and that i was in love with her. january comes around and im sitting with a new group of friends. my one frind says i should go up and talk to her in the lunch line, but i dont want to cause im not sure how to start talking to her.a few weeks pass by,its this february, junior class play comes up.i show up on the first day of rehearsal,cause im in the crew once again, and when ientered the auditorium, i look around at the cast. THERE SHE WAS all dressed up. i just found out that she was in the cast and i didnt know it. it was a weird coinsidence."this is the perfect opportunity" i say to myself. so im backstage, and she comes to my section of the stage before her scenes. i tryto talk to her, but am too nervous and unsure what to say to her. this goes on that whole week, until the weekend of the play. on the night of the play i go to the after party, shes there, and all my friends force me to talk to her. im nervous, and i begin to think about what she will think of me. i dont want to creep her out. so i go up and sit by her with my chin rested on my hand and start to talk to her awkwardly. i ask her her name , i ask her some obvious questions cause im nervous and not thinking. she then gets up and walks away. i think i freaked her out. So two weeks ago i went to this rock concert, and shes there. shes holding hands with this one guy. when the concert ended, they kissed. at the time i wasnt surprised, but the next morning i wake up enraged. i know her boyfrind, too. he was also in the play, and he transfered to my school only a few weeks before the play. hes really nice, but the thing that really pisses me off is that ive had my eyes on her long before he even came to the school and knew she existed. Just the thought of them having sex gives me chills down my spine.i really really hope they break up. for the past 2 weeks, ive been angry and depressed. i feel resentful. my one fiend wants me to fight him, but i dont want to cause id get in trouble and hes a cool guy.there not helpin, cause they talk about her every day. ive been working out rigorously and riding my bike to cope with the pain. this would'nt bother me so much, but ive never had a gf and i wasted all this time thinkin about her for nothin. i know im obsessed, but im really mad at myself cause im really the one to blame for not talkin to her earlier. i would really like insight and advice. thanks for readin this long post.

[malibustacydoll]

Wow. You are so young and full of so many hormones. You cannot be mad at this new guy who is dating her at all. You could not claim her if you were not talking to her and you did not make a move. I would not worry about this girl. I know how it feels to be in high school and become obsessed with another person. I had many crushes back then (wow, I sound old but I am really only 21). I thought I loved guys before without ever talking to them-- it really is just lust. You see how smart, nice, sexy, funny, etc they are and you build them up in your mind. Trust me-- this girl will come and go-- and so will many others. I highly suggest in the future though giving yourself more credit. Girls can sense when guys don't have confidence and it is a turn off. You only live once-- you might as well give it a chance. I have asked out many guys in my day. I haven't always found them wanting me, and I have been rejected before. It is something you get over though and the more you do it the tougher skin you get.

[Beautiful Inside]

awww ok check this out this is prob her first or maybe 2nd bf at the most of course its not gunna last who knows he might hook up with her friends or do something or she might just get tired/bored of him i say wait it out i bet she will be over him really soon i know when i was in high skool wayyyy back in the days i was over guys within one maybe 2 months at the most! lol trust me im a girl im telling you it wont last between them!