love_fool Posted March 15, 2009 Posted March 15, 2009 My ex and I met in high school, he moved from a bigger city into a smaller one, where he met me. I pretty much introduced him to people, but he never fully developed close relationships with anyone else other than me. He started falling for me, but never asked me out, partially because he has never had a girlfriend before. I got sick of waiting, and confused also with my feelings towards him. He was open and talked freely about his life to me. I started dating another guy on impulse, only to break up with him 2 months later after finding out I was a rebound for a 2 year relationship gone wrong. My ex and I didn't speak for those 2 months, only to catch a glimpse of each other in our high school hallways. Short story short, my ex never got over me, and I realized how much I actually liked him, and how much he has fallen for me. We became official in less than 2 weeks.. and it was a fairytale for me from that point on. He showed me new things, he took me places, he took me to his hometown, I met his friends, we lost our virginity to each other, and had crazy, wild times. Everything started to go wrong when we entered college. We were sick of each other, tired of the same old routine, and I knew, but he never freely admitted that he felt it too. Worst comes to worst, he dropped out of his program in college, and is left with nothing. No friends here, (he realized his 'friends' here don't connect with him the way his friends in his old city do), and he became ruthless and walked all over me. I fell in love, and I fell hard. Although later than he did, I fell so hard for him and I never opened up fully to someone like him. We're now over, after attempting to fix it and achieved nothing but failure. He told me that our relationship was at a standstill, and we weren't moving forward. I tried hard to make plans to see him weekly, but in reality he was just uninterested. I tried hard, and held on too tight. My mistake, because I clung on until the bitter end. He did nothing but push me away, and make me feel like crap. He wouldn't take me home anymore, he wouldn't call me just to talk, he wouldn't make the effort anymore to make plans with me. Despite all this, he told me, "I love you, and will always do." Later he told me I was boring, and uninteresting, and he was bored of us, and he wants to meet new people. What's love in that? His parting words to me, "I have a small vision.. that maybe we might have a chance in the future." I want to move on now, I want to stop thinking about him, because our routines revolved around each other and it's going to leave me here, lonely. Luckily I still have a few close friends, but they're not always going to be there to fight my battle for me. I've accepted the fact that it was the end for us, and fairytales and first loves don't always guarantee forever. I'm just confused with his last statement.. I don't want to be led on with false hope. I realize I shouldn't put my life on hold for him, and I'm working towards my future with a clear goal unlike him, who's wandering aimlessly. We were together for a year and 8 months, although.. his feelings for me started earlier than when we were official. He was my best friend, and I, for him too. What should I do?
Author love_fool Posted March 16, 2009 Author Posted March 16, 2009 Maybe I should be more clear... Should I try and become friends with him? Or just tie off all contact with him? Right now I'm determined to just not talk to him... ever.
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