lilmizznikstar Posted March 10, 2009 Posted March 10, 2009 Hey guys, I am so glad I found this website, I have been keeping a secret from everyone I for over 3 years now. I was with a group of friends and I met this guy and I swear a voice told me he was going to be the "one" for me (cliche I know) I have never moved past that. I didn't see him for about a year after the first meeting, but for a while we went to the same church (he even remembered me after our initial meeting). A while later I started a relationship with another person and we have been together for a year and a half now. At times I am happy, but that little voice has never silenced. I feel as if I am just "settling" and I don't think anyone will ever compare to this person who I have had really strong feelings for for over 3 years now. For some reason I just cannot get him out of my head. It confuses and upsets me hugely. I know it was very foolish to get into a realtionship on such unsteady ground, but I though it would make it all go away. I have never been so wrong. Now the relationship is starting to fall apart and I feel horrible because I just don't care. I mean I do, but deep down I want it to be over. I feel selfish, but I don't have it in me to break it off, I also have a huge fear of being alone. Oh and I'm 23, this isn't some schoolyard crush thingy, lol Thank you so much for letting me vent that out, it has been eating me away from the inside for years now. Thank you again - Nikki
SoulSearch_CO Posted March 10, 2009 Posted March 10, 2009 Well, I don't think it's fair to your SO to keep stringing him along while you pine for somebody else. Let him go so he can find somebody that'll give him 100%.
Author lilmizznikstar Posted March 11, 2009 Author Posted March 11, 2009 very true, and that is what I have done. In the end we both knew something wasn't right. It was an amicable (spelling... fail) split and we hope to remain friends I do feel a lot better now
Viking Posted March 11, 2009 Posted March 11, 2009 Ahhh, the grass is always greener. But that's because its watered with chicken $hi7 for fertilizer. This "new" guy is going to be a disappointment too because you'll find some other dude. I thought fidelity (emotional, physical etc) was something most church-going girls valued.
prettybaby Posted March 11, 2009 Posted March 11, 2009 Sounds just like me and my ex. We had an okay relationship for several years, but something was off and I did have an old crush in the back of my head all this time ... we eventually split. I got back in touch with the old crush, and old crush and I are now a couple. So hey, there's hope for you lol Always trust your instincts, but also act wisely.
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