EmperorR Posted March 11, 2009 Posted March 11, 2009 I'm like at 170 days of nc, part of me wonders how she is, or if she will even contact me again. However, I know it's best I don't contact her I know how I was in the early stages. It's funny though I know I'd my ex contacts me I'd be pissed at her for contacting me for the first time in like half a year but the other part of me contemplates playing with fire.
Author BCCA Posted March 11, 2009 Author Posted March 11, 2009 I see you think "will she call" I guess with a hope that she will, what about having a hope for something else? Like a holiday, doing something you have always fancied trying ~ so you have that hope and thinking forwards, rather than backwards?? Well, see, thats part of my problem. I'm just starting to realize that its ok to plan things for myself. I think part of the 'funk' that comes along with being dumped is that you kind of forget that at one time, you DID do things on your own. It also makes it harder because Im now the ONLY single person in my circle of friends, and trying to plan something with people in relationships is annoying at best. I really just want to be left alone, honestly. If she did call, I certainly wouldnt answer or call her back. I guess its just realizing that, YES, someone can walk out of your life for good and never look back. Hard to come to grips with it, but its the truth. Thanks all.
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