LifeinaFlash Posted March 4, 2009 Posted March 4, 2009 I guess I'm venting here. Maybe someone could offer me some kind of advice, although I'm not sure what it is I'm really looking for. I'm sixteen. I've never had a real serious boyfriend, and I'm not exactly the most visible and outgoing person in the world. He's seventeen. Bigtime athlete, decently poplular. Funny and charming and intelligent. We have different circles of friends, though we share a few in common, but there's essentially no association between us. I used to know him fairly well, but I wasn't interested (and neither was he, from what I could tell). Then, there was an instance this year where -- and forgive me for the cornyness, but this is honestly how it happened -- I saw him across the room and he glowed. And I realized how absolutely gorgeous he was. And I'll admit that my infatuation was originally based on his looks, but it's grown to more than that. With everything I learn about him, I fall deeper and deeper into my crush. Which is completely nonsensical because nothing I've learned has been through him directly. Which makes me sound incredibly creepy... now that I'm seeing it written out, but honestly it's not like that! I just don't have the guts to go talk to him. And I know, because of that, I'll never have him. If only I had a little more time to get over the fear of rejection I have... but I only noticed how wonderful he's become in his senior year. And now, it's too late. I just found out that he was accepted on an athletic scholarship to what has been my first-choice college for a very long time, and he'll be attending. And I was thinking about contacting him after he got started in the fall to see if he would show someone from his alma mater around campus. But it seems like that would be too calculated. It seems that anything I do at this point would be too calculated. And that I should just give up altogether. But I'm having a really, really hard time getting over someone I've never had.
Geishawhelk Posted March 4, 2009 Posted March 4, 2009 If you know anything about getting in touch with him, drop him a note or a rtext, and make a move. What do you have to lose? Also (I'm not being patronising) but you are very young, and if this fails - I promise you - it's not the end of the world. Set out to enjoy your life, safeluy and responsibly, and if it works, great. If not, although it might hurt for a while, put it down to a growing experience. Incidentally....? You write well, lucidly and intelligently. You're bright, articulate and you know how to express yourself admirably, in writing. Please know, this is extremely rare. look after this attribute, cultivate it and never lose it. It puts you head and shoulders way above many people your age, and older. Good post.
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