mm4184 Posted March 1, 2009 Posted March 1, 2009 So I've been NC since January 5. I've run into him once last week after months of nothing and I was just so shaken up but kept it together, said hi, kissed on the cheek, and walked away. We broke up in September but we stopped seeing each other January. Tomorrow would have been our 3 years. I really don't know what to expect to feel, but I'm scared He's the kind of guy that forgets what day of the week it is so I doubt he's going to remember what tomorrow is.. Last time we talked he had "promised" to take me out when he got back from a work trip to make up for my Christmas present for him but... we never went out. Of course, I'm not going to be the one to call. For the last few months, I've just been going out, trying to do my own thing... and of course I don't feel as horrible as I did before, but I just feel like it's always there. Always haunting me. I feel like I'm waiting for the day that he finds a new girlfriend and then I'm set back to step 1 which is NOWHERE I ever want to be or ever want to go through again. So tomorrow, I don't really know what to do. I'll be going to church with my family. Then maybe I should get really wasted and pass out all day haha. I hate this so much. Sometimes I feel abnormal for going back to this feeling again. Will it ever end? Most of my friends have boyfriends. And then I have 2 close friends that always are around him because they help out with his TV show so they're all close. It just hurts. I just want it to go away. Am I abnormal for not being over it by now? I know everyone's different but what else can I do!?
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