smile_through_tears Posted February 25, 2009 Posted February 25, 2009 I'm always hurting and always thinking of my ex..it doesnt matter whether im studying for en exam, working, hanging out with friends...i am constantly thinking of him...as soon as i wake up up untill i go to sleep, no matter what im doing hes always there in the back of my mind... I cant let go...I have heard and followed advice but it does not work...the worst part about this is that its so HOPELESS and i cant seem to find a solution. Its almost as if I want to step out of my body and BE FREE of the hurt and the pain but I cant. I dont know what is wrong with me, I feel like Im going crazy. I am so attached, its rediculos. I think part of this is that we spent ALOT of time together...ALL THE TIME to be exact and it never occurred to me we would break up. I know that was a mistake to put my all into someone but i did and now i dont feel complete without him...i know all the advice, the kick in the pants, sympathy and tough love as well...yes i've heard it all, but i cant seem to forget him or rip him off my heart..I dont talk to him, Im in as strict NC as one can be, but i just miss him so much...i wouldnt dare tell him any of this..im sure to him i may seem like i have moved on but i havent..AT ALL!! It is THAT bad!! i feel like im losing it..i cant even describe in how much agony i am...although its rediculos but when i think of me with someone else and him with someone else I GET SAD!! Im sad for the lost love, for the loss of something i considered so BEAUTIFUL and SINCERE! Imagining him with another girl kills me and I cant even THINK of me with another guy. What the hell is wrong with me? Before I met him, I used to always say "Why do people get so stuck on one person? and my advice was always just MOVE ON!" but now I see how HARD it is. It feels impossible and I feel like imma go insane soon....I hate this with all my heart and I want a way out of this...I want HIM BACK, honestly i cannot stand being apart from him..IM LOSING IT!!!!!! i dont know whats my point for writing...i guess to EXPRESS MYSELF although it doesnt even matter anymore.....
12ape Posted February 25, 2009 Posted February 25, 2009 I am in the same position as you are man, I miss her so much too.. 4 Years of constantly being "together"... I'm realy down in the dumps also.
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