Goatsbreath Posted February 24, 2009 Posted February 24, 2009 ok, so you once asked this question, see down below....sarah says: "I wonder how long we can keep this original Re: going." I don't know what kind of bridge will span the distance that has come between us but I hope one does exist for us one day. I hope one day I can be in your circle looking out at everyone else because it feels bad to be outside of it. As I sift through the past I am haunted by the the words to this song on the first cd you ever gave me.... "I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes cause when you showed me myself I became someone else But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need" This stings because when you moved in I started stressing about trying to become the person that could provide all you wished for and all you needed. In the process I became someone else, not the person who showered you with loving antics. Before any of this mess you woke up one morning and I was on the couch crying. It was the first time I cried in a long time and you noticed and came to comfort me right away asking, whats the matter. Everything was the matter because I felt like a failure and I could not get to the point in my life where I wanted to be, where I wanted us to be. but your gone now and this is never where i wanted to be. Whatever the bitter personification of stress and circumstances came to be I lost site of looking into your eyes every day and showing you that I loved you. I dont expect a response, I know your past it, moving on into the night and Im still on the swing set in my brothers backyard telling you that in the dark you could be a demon and scarey. Then you looked at me and in the dark I saw you, and you said "Im not your demons, Im your friend."
Author Goatsbreath Posted February 24, 2009 Author Posted February 24, 2009 ps: im trying not to send it and it would be a re: of many past conversations we had back and fourth when we first started to hook up
Author Goatsbreath Posted February 24, 2009 Author Posted February 24, 2009 haha, point taken. I broke NC today anyway so then I figured I my as well purge the system but I think I will not send it.
rod_in_gtown Posted February 24, 2009 Posted February 24, 2009 I'm sorry brother, I can definitely relate. Been there and felt that. Plus "In the Sun" is SUCH a beautiful and sad song at the same time. I just had to go into my iPhone and play it. I wonder, what version was it? acoustic Guitar by Joseph Arthur or Electronica by Pete Gabriel in the Princess Di Tribute album? I personally love Joseph's version.
Author Goatsbreath Posted February 24, 2009 Author Posted February 24, 2009 hey rod, great story about that. Actually it was the michael stipe (REM) and the guy from coldplay version. But during the breakup she started downloading alot of songs from joseph arthur onto my computer. Because it reminded me of her I tried to stay away from them but when I was on last fm I entered damien rice as a artist. It started to play songs and eventually I was sitting there and it played the Joseph Arthur version. Ouch, talk about coming around full circle. But yeah, when she fist gave me that cd at the start of our relationship I knew, man, if something didn't work out this song is going to kill me....haha
Author Goatsbreath Posted February 24, 2009 Author Posted February 24, 2009 one of the songs she put on my computer before she left was honey and the moon by Joseph Arthur. Man she knows how to mess a guy up.
rod_in_gtown Posted February 24, 2009 Posted February 24, 2009 Wow. That's just wrong. Well, keep yourself busy. For me, picking up tennis and golf again helped a lot. It kept me busy and my mind focused on one thing. I haven't heard the Michael Stipe version. I think I'm going to look it up.
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