Ricky01 Posted February 23, 2009 Posted February 23, 2009 I definitely have separation anxiety, with anything. I am a wreck when I lose my favorite watch or DVD or even if I have to throw out bananas because they spoil before I can get to eat them. How do you get rid of it? This attribute keeps me in this little bubble of worry. I have never been the guy that lived off a relationship, not because I was too cool, or too much of a player. Simply because I didn't have enough time to develope a real relationship. All my years in the Army, and relative work I travled long enough to meet up with women and carried on little intimate friendships as I traveled the world, since I traveled in patterns, I was capable of seeing them all again, so I never felt the need to see one more than the other. Just about the time I was to see one again, I realized I "missed" her or them. That isn't the case now. I had my flighty ways derailed when i realized I loved my exgf. years later it didnt work, even though I wanted it to, yea that story. my real topic is that since this significant loss, I can't shake it off. Its become so bad to as, I have clinged to other women in response to losing "mine". I have had brief yet potent relations with women in other countries, the spark of interest of these women to be dilluted with finer details. Either they live in another country, state, have a bf, fiance, husband, or the combination of both. my latest was a complete suprise...(though this appears to be habitual.) I just want to be on a clean slate again. I want to not care. Yea that sounds dramatic and EMO, but Im tired of my resume getting longer of let downs. I seem to be doing it to myself... wtf?
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