anabanana88 Posted February 20, 2009 Posted February 20, 2009 I'm new here and I've been reading a few threads back and all i have to say is wow! where have you guys been these past five months? I'm going to rant a bit as I need to get some things off my chest: I was dumped on my birthday last September by my boyfriend of five years. At the time he told me he wanted to be single after such a long time of dating. I was devastated, but decided to give him time to think things over. I was informed two days later by a mutual friend that he had started dating a girl he had become close friends with in the previous months. I decided to drop by his house as soon as I found out to give him back his things. There were screams and tears shed, but when I ultimately asked him if he truly wanted to be with his new girlfriend he responded "yes". When I got home that night I wrote him a message saying that I wanted nothing but the best for him and wished him well in everything he did. I haven't had any contact with him ever since and as far as I know he's still with his girlfriend. That was five months ago and I still think about him on a daily basis. Everyday gets a bit easier, I have my good days and I have my bad days. The reason why I came to this forum today is because I had my first run in with him at school in the afternoon. All those emotions came back when I saw him in his car. No words were exchanged but I'm pretty sure he saw me too. After seeing him today, I feel the same way I felt when I was dumped. I'm uneasy and all those sad emotions i've been trying to fight off so hard for the past few months are coming back :/ I guess what truly hurts the most is that he didn't even wave hello or tried to talk to me, instead he just kept driving and now all those emotions are coming back. I also want to add that on Valentine's Day I checked his myspace and he had added a few songs he wrote and recorded for me a few years back on his music page with a default picture of a heart saying "if you ever get lost, you are here" (meaning if you ever get lost, you are in their heart). When I checked his music page the next day, those songs were gone. What is that all about? Am I just looking too much into it? Anyways, stay strong guys!
SYL Posted February 20, 2009 Posted February 20, 2009 Perhaps your not saying hello to him also boosted some emotions for him... Perhaps he was able to track your visit to his MySpace page and he was prompted to finally remove the song(s). Perhaps your encounter reminded him that he had some unfinished business in fully closing your past relationship. There are so many things that it could all mean... Hon, it's been five months and you have come a long way. Don't allow yourself to get twisted up now -- it's not worth it. Be happy for him that he has moved on. If he was interested in you again, he will make it known. Let it go.
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