calithin83 Posted October 2, 2003 Posted October 2, 2003 Ok my ex broke up with me a month ago but we still have to see eachother because we have class together..anyways we had kinda gone back ...and acted like bf and gf...but it didnt work out...so we stopped talking..he then we kinda got back again...kissing..hugging..but not officially bf and gf..but one day he got mad at me for a stupid reason and he told me he didnt want anything to do with me and somewhat kicked me out of his car...it hurt me and i cried and when i called him he wouldnt respond so i decided to let go..i had no choice..he didnt want me anymore and he just got me down....so i would see him in school and just ignore him, i spent two weeks ignoring him when i saw him in class...until TODAY....today he talked to me before class...but i was still acting whatever..so i went to the bathroom before class and when i came back i didnt sit next to him cos..i didnt wanna fall back..like all those times i did...i guess he noticed that i didnt sit next to him...so during class he sent me a note , he said he founda paper in his backpack that belonged to me and he wanted to give it to me...then i just said ok and looked back at my book...then 10minutes later he called my name again and i turned around and he said "are u hungry" and im like ....NO, why?...and then just laughed and turned my face back to my book...at this point i knew he would approach me after class..and i was scared cos i missed him and still wanted him i was just scared to get hurt again..well aftter class he approached me and asked me if i wanted to go eat....so i said "ok, as long as u pay"...and so i went with him to eat...and we ended up KISSING:(!!!!!! i know i should be happy..cos i care for him..but i feel like he must feel like "HAHAHA inside" cos maybe he sees how easy i am..falling into him again after the bad way hes treated me (he called me a bitch before)...anyways i dont know what to do...i feel stupid and i regret it...but..its hard to move on when i see him in class...im not gonna get my hopoes up with him, cos the last time i did he broke myheart again...so should i just go out wtih him and kiss, and just not get myself attached? i feel dumbc os i know i wont be his gf..cos i know he wont ask me...and in a way i dont want to be either...this is dumb..i really dont know what questions i want answered i guess i just want people to comment in my situationa dn if anyone has done waht ive done..like going back to ure ex...even when u know he isnt good for u anymore, and that u dont trust him anymore...yet for some reason u cant let go..and when ure with him ure happy/but not really..and when ure not with him ure sad...this is weird...anyways COMMENT PLEASE p.s. im 20 hes 19 and we dated for 2 years and 8 months...i feel like hes with me cos he hasnt found anyone else...i bet if he did he would DROP me completely!!!
VASH THE STAMPEDE Posted October 3, 2003 Posted October 3, 2003 Originally posted by calithin83 p.s. im 20 hes 19 and we dated for 2 years and 8 months...i feel like hes with me cos he hasnt found anyone else...i bet if he did he would DROP me completely!!! first thing first. hes treated you like crap so many times,he sounds abusive . the last paragraph tells me he DOESN'T Love you. i would have to say you should move on hes going to continue being this way. about your classes with him ,can you ask to be moved to another time? that way you wont have to see him. dont feel bad people tend to be the way they are because nobody taught them better.
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