bellarosa Posted February 17, 2009 Posted February 17, 2009 I was with this guy for two years, and it was a really great relationship. There was a lot of stress towards the end. He was going to college, and all that. It's been a year now, and he wants to be with me again. He seems really sincere, and he's changed a lot of things that I had issues with. We're best friends... I'm still in love with him, but I'm terrified to get my heart broken again. I've been in another relationship since then, and I couldn't stop thinking about my ex the entire time. I actually broke up with this other guy because I was still in love with my ex. I'll make the decision to go back into it, then I'll change my mind. Then I'll change my mind again. I'll spend time with him, and feel great, and then afterwards I'll begin questioning and panicking. I really want this, but I feel like I have this box around me that keeps me from being vulnerable. Should I just try again? How can I let go? I feel like my attitude is holding me back from something potentially good. We're going to be going to the same college soon, and I know that I'm going to have an extremely hard time not dating him if I decide not to try now. It almost seems inevitable to me. If anyone needs any better info to help me, feel free to ask. Please.
BCCA Posted February 17, 2009 Posted February 17, 2009 Just to clarify, you broke up with him the first time? Why? Let me know, so I can fit my answer to your situation better.
Author bellarosa Posted February 17, 2009 Author Posted February 17, 2009 The person I broke up with that I was talking about was the boyfriend I had after the guy I'm still in love with. Different person. But I broke up with the guy I'm still in love with because he was very stressed and wasn't acting like himself. He was very withdrawn and didn't want to share anything that was going through his head with me. Also, he lived farther away than I liked. I know this might sound silly, but he got money for gas from his parents (we're young) and he was using a lot driving back and forth. I couldn't drive to see him because I can't drive. That caused a lot of tension, and I was unfair about the situation. I obviously have a hard time with distance. And he's even farther away now then he was then. He tries to see me whenever he can though. My head is telling me to just let it go, but my heart is telling me not to give up. I'm so confused.
BCCA Posted February 17, 2009 Posted February 17, 2009 I obviously have a hard time with distance. Ok... And he's even farther away now then he was then. So, what makes you think things will be any different this time around? Honestly, I think youre more in love with the idea of who you think he COULD be, and not so much with who he is right now. I think you should let this one go.
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