fabulousgal Posted February 16, 2009 Posted February 16, 2009 Wanting to fall off and hoping there is no net. I don't want anyone to worry, I couldn't actually hurt myself no matter how much I want to end the pain I am in. Failed relationships, one after the other...the only common thread is me. I am in therapy, my job has shaken up my living situations so much the hobbies and activities I develop in place to place disappear. My therapist(s) don't see me sabotoging relationships, being needy, etc. Maybe I am just so horrid no one will want me other than physically. They all move on to exclusive relationships, and here I am, hollow inside remembering promises made and broken, how I walked away with pride to never be remembered again. I just wish one person would rather stay with me then walk away with no remorse.
Geishawhelk Posted February 16, 2009 Posted February 16, 2009 If your therapists don't see you sabotaging relationships, then trust them to know what they're talking about. What you are doing, is sabotaging your own progress by putting yourself so far down, you're not even sure which way up is, any more. You need to talk to one - or all - of your therapists about how to change your thinking. Because you can. There IS a way, and it's vital you investigate it, because it works. They should be guiding you towards flying, not falling.
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