Blessings Posted February 15, 2009 Posted February 15, 2009 Im not asking for advice or anything...just wanting to vent or write down somehwere how I'm feeling... Listen today I went out for Valentine's Day because well obviously I want to live and be happy, I refuse to let myself drift apart..I come first in my life...Now I saw a guy who looked like you and it made me want to see you sooo bad...I miss you, honestly and sincerely I do, I love you...I have no idea what you have been up to because since most people say the way to go is NC I'm attempting but it feels like it is only making me miss you more...This pain is not "impossible" to live with but Im going to say it is because it is REALLY hard going through life with this weight on your heart..It has nothing to do with how strong or weak you are...I cant even explain it, it just...hurts...not knowing what you're because I think knowing would kill me... What I wonder is why did u act so cold towards me?? why!! why!! why!! but then initiate conversation with me and when i try to be your "friend" as you want, you dont even act like a friend..its so awkward n cold...I dont want those to be my last memories of you...I pray to God so much to just take the pain away..I want you back in my life but you dont love me...sigh...I feel pathetic thinking you;re probably out right now while I'm here thinking of you...I remember the first night we met...how could you cry about our separation but then want it anyway? I dont understand you because our memories are good and u chose this path, leaving me heartbroken...
EbEvoVIII Posted February 15, 2009 Posted February 15, 2009 I know how you feel right now.........was this a guy that broke your heart or a girl?
dudemag Posted February 15, 2009 Posted February 15, 2009 i ask me ex those same questions to myself every night when i lay awake in bed for hours on end...
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