Loosing my mind

[scared20y/o]

Well here is my situation. I been dating this girl for 4 years. She said she loved me and wanted to be with me. I broke it off with her 5 months ago because I was not sure I wanted to be with her. We had many problems because I was always working and never had much time for her. I understand where our relationship went wrong. First off her mom wanted her to date someone else on the side because I was always working. My ex told me this. Her mom was the kind of woman that has a husband and another guy on the side. No offense to anyone but this was her mom. I felt as if she was setting a bad example for her daughter. I was afraid she would do this too. After two weeks of being broken up, she wanted to meet up and talk. I didn't want to meet up with her. I never ignored her or anything. She later found out through friends that I started to see a girl, so she started to see someone else too. I tried to call her, email her and everything. I even went to her house to talk to her. I couldn't because her mother came out and told me to leave her alone and let her be. While all this is happening all of my friends which she knows are telling me that she is asking for me and if I have a girl and wants to know everything that im up to. This has been going on for a couple months and its driving me crazy. Im madly in love with this girl and would give anything in the world to talk to her. I have been trying for months and she just ignores me. Till this day she even checks out my myspace. I know she does because when im online, and she gets online my profile view goes up one. No one else is online then us two. My question is, Does this girl still want me? Why does she keep asking about me? How do I talk to her? Im all out of ideas and am loosing my mind. Their is so much to this story that I could almost write a book.

[scared20y/o]

Another thing to know is, that me and my ex grew up together. I have known her since we were 3 years old. She is my first love and dont know what to do anymore.